Long Term Effects of Ecstasy
Ecstasy (also known as MDMA) was initially designed as an appetite suppressant. However, it became popular as a way to get high. It was widely used as a teenage and college drug , popular at dance clubs and raves. Some used it at dance marathons (raves) to increase their stamina. It is used to relax, remove inhibitions, as a speed substitute and to increase pleasure.
Some users of the drug ecstasy like to speak of how it opens up their heart, makes them able to feel close to people and be in the moment. Because it wears off after some hours, people think there are no long term effects of ecstasy. First of all, some short-term effects of mdma can include Some side effects include poor coordination, feelings of nausea, excessive sweating, dryiness of the throat and dehydration. Because people can feel down for a few days after coming down, it creates a cycle where you want the high again and then take the ecstasy once again.
Street ecstasy also can be a mix of a number of different items including baking soda, amphetamines and ephedrine. You don’t know what you are getting and can’t tell by just looking at a pill.
Some people mix a few drugs at once and this can be a serious problem. If you mix together ecstasy and acid (lsd) this can result in a very negative experience filled with terror. Taking an amphetamine and ecstasy at the same time can lead to a very rapid heart beat.
One long term effect of ecstasy that concerns some researchers is potential brain damage. Some say that neurons that produce serotonin become damaged and it doesn’t take much ecstasy for this to occur. Another concern is that there will be increased depression, anxiety and psychiatric disorders with long term use of ecstasy.
It is a popular teen drug due to the attraction to going to clubs and raves and wishing for ways to keep up and have stamina. Aside from being illegal, the short-term and long-term effects of ecstasy can be quite damaging. Keep in mind that yoga, tai-chi and other natural highs can be practiced as a way to feel both relaxation and control. These won’t increase your heart rate, create nausea or lead to brain damage. Teen life and college life has a lot of pressures for fitting in, performing and showing that one can chill. Education is important to see that this isn’t an innocent drug.
The drug ecstasy may enhance clubbing and raves but you can feel like crap for days afterwards and then just spend time planning the next time you’ll take it. It is not a good way to keep living.
Mdma is no joke. People get into combining mdma and other stuff on weekend nights and I’ve seen people really messed up by using these drugs to get high and wasted.
Another long term effect of ecstasy is that you tend to associate parties with ecstasy so it then becomes hard to enjoy yourself without any mdma. But the problem is that people don’t know how to really get into a good conversation without some kind of drug enhancement experience.
I am a former user of ecstasy. I have taken well over 300 pills in the year or so that I took it. There were times that I would stay awake for more than a week fueled by pills and alcohol. The feeling is like no other but its a horrible realization to surcome to when you realize that you are an addict. I know its been said before but I was hooked on my first pill. I took one my first time, one and a half my second. Ten and a half my third. I lost my job, my truck, most of my family, my friends, and more important than all of that… myself. Alcohol lead me to weed. Weed led me to mushrooms. Mushrooms lead me to cocaine. Cocaine led to me ecstasy. Ecstasy led me to crack. Crack led me finally to jail. I now have 3 M.I.P. (minor in possesion) convictions. 1 D.U.I. conviction. 1 Felony Narcotics conviction. I am unsure of my long term effects on my body. I know my memory is almost completly shot. My back is always sore (I am guessing from acid/mushrooms/ecstasy/morphine) I used to be a very smart person. Drugs have really dumbed me down. If I can reach even one person with this and have them turn down drugs then my teen years would have not been a total waste.
I get anxiety a lot from it, i know its from it. Because when i first started, and the day that i knew that i would be taking a pill that night i’d get sweaty and butterflies and just really excited. and now theres so many times where i get that same feeling and it make me sick to the stomach. The thought of rolling doesnt even interest me anymore, it scares me. I used to be addicted, and i craved it all the time. My memory is screwed too, i feel stupid talking to someone at work to help them, then two minutes later asking them if they need help. I feel me being messed up from it, my anxiety is the worst. I dont know how to make it go away, if it ever will.
Andrew-your post is very good advice and very well written. I hope that you
continue to share your story with others so that you do touch someones life.
However, my main reason for being here is because I have a lot of questions,
concerning my 22 year old brother and I am hoping that someone has advice,
suggestions,etc. He, like many others his age, used to drink every weekend
and experimented with things such as cocaine,weed,pills,ecstasy. However,
the past 6 months he has been experiencing a lot of what appears to be panic
and anxiety. He claims that he hasn’t done anything but smoke weed and drink
since the summer. The feelings of panic and chest pains,headaches,etc. have
now taken a new level of discomfort and he’s having difficulty getting through
the day. Its been 6 days since he has smoked weed/drank alcohol, could the
feelings and sickness he’s experiencing be from a week ago and could this be a
permenant side effect from his party habits? Any advice, comments, etc would be
greatly appreciated. Thank you!!
I’m with you Kayler and Andrew;
I was drinking from 14, done my first e at 15 and from then went absolutely wild on the things. I took one, double dropped the second time, then done them every weekend throughout my last school years. Then when I left school, I didn’t do any up ’til college, where I got my brother on them and started going really intense, 25 pills a week in some stages. I’ve tallied that i’ve done way over 500 pills.
I use to be a happy lad, I still am, but my personality has certainly changed. All during these e days, I done ketamine, coke, alcohol, lots of weed, speed etc etc. Now I only do coke when i’m out drinking, once or twice a month, ’cause i’m too scared of OD’ing when i’m sober and alcohol’s the only thing that relaxes me. I am quite depressed now, anxiety non stop, it’ll never go away, I just know it, i’ve messes myself up too much. I was young at the time and didn’t realise the damage I was doing, now it’s caught up on me. I haven’t done coke since the end of November and i’m trying to quit alcohol to try and sacrifice my brain and my organs, ’cause everything is surely on the verge of collapse.
I’m only 20, 21 at the end of this month; now i’ve had my fun and it’s fucked me up, and i’ll never regain the person I was, unless I pack everything up and try and get my energy and memory back on track. My concentartion and memory is diabolical, and i always get abdominal pain on my upper-right side (liver)mainly because I became an alcoholic after quitting the e, to help cure the anxiety and depression.
Anyone reading this who’s blasting back as many e’s as I was, it’s not worth it. Many people said to me at the time, “sort yourself out” etc, but I didn’t listen, e helped me through a lot of things, but it’s long term you’ve got to think about. I’m 20 and feel like i’ve got bloody alzeimers.
I have only done e about 20 times 2 bombs a time due to the fact that I am prescribed to antidepressants. Using e was one of the worst decisions of my life. I think due to my use in such a short period of time it really impacted my depression. My back honestly never stops aching and I completely lost my long distant eye sight. If you’re reading this take my advice and never use this drug or any other for that matter… It’s just not worth it.
my story is similar to all of yours.. I have to stay anonymous because I’m well known and it would ruin my career if I published my name. I started smoking weed at 16, ecstasy and coke at 17. I’ve done shrooms, ketamine, 2cb (mescaline), xanax, vicodin, norcos, soma, you name it, I’ve done it. I’m only 20 years old and I rarely ever do anything besides smoke weed now a days, and maybe roll once every couple months. but when I was 17, I went CRAZY on ecstasy. doing 10 pills a week, for a year straight, and still continue to do it sometimes to this day. I’ve probably done over 300 pills, and let me tell you, I regret every single one. I think about killing myself everyday, I have bi polar disorder and major anxiety. I rarely eat, rarely sleep, and my brain never stops thinking. I don’t have any physical pains though.. maybe its because I never really got into drinking like most people. I’ve seen my friends lives be completely fucked up, in jail, I’ve even had friends who have overdosed and died. I’m happy to say that I am a changed person, I tell all of my friends not to do the stupid shit I’ve done. I go to great lengths to stop them from doing drugs, even though I can’t seem to stop myself. I’ve tried therapy, rehab, everything, but the loss of happyness I experience overpowers all of it. My advice to anyone reading this and just started rolling or doing any drug, DO NOT DO IT. stop. TRUST ME! Your life will be ruined. you will not be the same. it might seem like fun at first but it gets old fast.. and all your left with is a broken heart and a twisted mind.
Andrew’s post and the annoymous post was very moving. I’ve popped maybe 15 thizzels and I’m glad I’ve stopped. My boyfriend has popped over 250 thizzels and it scares me sometimes when I think about how his brain is going to work when he’s twenty or older. He forgets a lot of stuff and often doesn’t know basic stuff like a person should. I’m fine in the regard that I don’t remember stuff and thankfully I still have my smarts. But for the people that didn’t get help soon enough I’m very sorry. I just hope people realize what a horrible drug ecstasy is. . . its so far from “worth it”.
Let’s see; where to start. I am a person that used “E” many times between the ages of 20-24. It was primarily for a social occasion such as a party or a night club. It never really got out of hand but it was continuous at least 1-4 times a month for those years. During this time I never lost a job, never lost a home, never lost a car and still lived a normal day to day life. I “used” on the weekends and partied hard.
I am 30 now and I am posting to give hope to those that have “used” to show that it does not always have a negative effect on people in the long run. Since I have quit using, I took myself to college and graduated in the top ten in my class for Video Game Design. I now operate my own business and have a very happy married life.
The partying was fun and was a very big part of my life. The drugs actually helped mold my personality and allowed me to not be so insecure with myself. I can admit that I may have some short term memory loss but nothing significant. This could also be caused by any number of things with age so I am not at all concerned about it.
Do I feel that taking Ecstasy is a good thing? No
Do I regret taking Ecstasy? No, it was a choice I made and when I wanted to stop, I stopped.
Has Ecstasy given me anxiety and severe brain damage? No
Do I recommend that you take Ecstasy? No, but do what you want.
Will all users have the same outcome as me? Nope
Will I ever use it again? Nope. I had my fun.
Was it a gateway to other drugs? No. I started with it and ended with it.
If you are prone to addiction do not take Ecstasy.
One more note. Don’t get caught with it because the gov’s crack down hard on it. It gets expensive real quick! =)
Cheers!
J
Hi I was doing a web search on ‘long term effects from ecstasy’ and I came across all your posts. Very moving and I identify with all of you. I am searching this out because I am 34 now, I havent had an e since I was like 19 but I think I am suffering from the long term effects of it. My e binge, back in the day, I think went for a few months full on. I dont really remember much from back then. But I have to say I have never ever felt happy since. I think the e has freaked up my serotonin. I’ve had counselling and anti-depressants but I just have no joy.
I hope oneday my serotonin in my brain will be repaired because I crave happiness and positive thoughts again.
I have no desire to take drugs, I generally take care of myself now, but unfortunately I think I have suffered the long term side effects of drugs.
Hi! I just wanted to comment on some of your posts. I too experienced with E for a couple years…18-23. Some of the time was more and some less. I never considered myself addicted seeing that I used it recreational and never paid for it with my own money and when I was ready to change I just stopped. I am now 27 and still experiencing panic attacks. They did not start while I was using but about a year after using. I also have a mind that never stops thinking. I can actually visualize things in my heads like a cartoon. I was never like this before but the constant thoughts are not a problem for me. The worse thing is the panic attacks. I honestly believe that I have to deal with this all because of using E. I don’t regret anything i’ve done because it has made me who I am and I had to learn things for myself but I don’t recommend using to others. I was the type who thought there was a “right” way to use such as not drinking too much water but drinking enough. I never thought about the long term and wouldn’t have thought it would happen anyways. I just wanted to say that I know where some of you are coming from and sometimes it drives you crazy but you’ll be stronger of a person for overcoming it. Although I lost my way I am one semester from graduating with my B.A. in Psychology and my plan is to help at risk youth because I know how easy it is to get off track and I’ve seen so many people go many different ways. I know this may not help but at least you know your not alone.
I was a frequent user of ecstasy. Still do but rarely. I can still have fun at parties without it. I never got depressed afterwards. You have to know what you’re doing and do the proper research. I’m the same person now as I was before. End of story. Not everyone’s the same. Not everyone gets addicted the first pill. I have a great job and am currently going for my masters. My life wasn’t ruined, but enhanced because I didn’t think of it as an escape but a way to expand myself. Take the experience and learn from it. I never went to rehab or went crazy. You just have to know how to control yourself, and have it set in your mind what exactly it is you want out of life. Yes, drugs are bad. I’m not condoning them AT ALL. But just know that not everyone has a horror story. Just because someone rolls once it doesn’t means that their life is shot and they’re going to die.
While I understand that certain people have very addictive personalities, and ecstasy should not be taken by everyone, if you are able to control when you use, and how much you use, I see no problems with doing the drug. I have taken ecstasy three times (a total of eight pills) and Molly (MDMA powder) four times (about 1.15 grams total). Besides allowing myself a short recovery time, usually less than a day, I have not experienced any other effects. In this time, normally I am very tired, have no appetite, memory can be poor and might have slight muscle pain in my jaw or general aches from standing and dancing all night. While coming down, once I experienced nausea, but that was due entirely to drinking too much water throughout the night.
In my opinion, the biggest danger of ecstasy is not knowing what is in your pills. You can get a meth-bomb or a pipe, which doesn’t give you the high you would like and can make you very sick. A good way to avoid pills like these are only buying from people you know, getting a pill testing kit, or checking websites like pillreports.com. At this website and others similar to it, people post reports on pills they have taken, the contents of the pills if they test them, and a report of the roll. This website has pills sorted by location, color and logo and you can get a pretty good idea of what you’re taking by searching it.
I understand that drugs can be dangerous, but there are several precautions you can take to make sure you have a safe roll. Nausea and muscle pain can easily be prevented by taking an antacid and NSAID such as Advil or Alieve. While rolling, you will feel very dehydrated and drinking water is very important, but you must pace yourself to make sure you do not drink too much water. I have made this mistake twice before and it causes pretty bad nausea. If you drink one water bottle per hour, there shouldn’t be much of a problem. While rolling, it helps if you have something in your mouth such as a pacifier or sucker to prevent chewing on your tongue or cheek. Lastly, like anything that inhibits you, you shouldn’t drive while on the drug. Lights are incredibly bright which makes it incredibly difficult to judge distances.
If someone decides to use ecstasy, it should be to have a fun night on occasion. If someone is using to escape reality and their problems, or as a substitute for another drug, I could understand it causing addiction.
I have not experienced any long term effects at all and a lot of great memories because of this drug. If you are a person who can control your usage, I honestly seem no harm in the drug as long as it’s used occasionally and in moderation.
manda. take it easy, that sounds similar to denial. read the previous posts and heed there experiences and advice. everyone is not the same, but not many people know they6 have suffered the long term effects of ecstasy until later down the line, when it matters that most.
i used to be quite the e head my self and i agree with the anxiaty thing! will this ever go away? it seems like nothing is as fun without doing xtc.e is defanetly one of the bigest mistakes in my life therez nothing like mowing pillz for weeks on end but the days after are hardly worth it any more. now evan the thought of doing xtc makes me sick to my stomach! some one leme no if there is any way to rid the anxioty caused from xtc! ITS NOT WORTH IT DONT DO IT!!!!!!!
Boo to manda and the other people who make it seem like ecstasy is ok to use or at least try.
I was extremely moved by Andrew and Anonymous’s brief stories.
Drugs scare me. It may seem like fun, but knowing how much it can mess you up both physically and mentally is scary.
I never want to do Ecstasy ever.
I can relate to J and Renee. I began taking e when I was about 17-18 years old. I continued to take it on the weekends when I would go out until I was about 25-26 years old. I have experimented with other drugs but, e was always what I would go back to. I never lost a job, vehicle, and I have 3 degrees and a very stable job. However, I do believe I began experiencing the long term effects of taking e when I was about 30 years old. I am now 37 and it seems to be getting worse. I have been on several different anti-depressants for depression and anxiety. I recently had my first panic attack and my short-term memory is “shot.” It is not so much my short term memory as it is a feeling of being in a fog or scattered brained. I use to be very neat and organized at home and at work. I am not like that at all anymore. I also become overwhelmed in large social situations. I was never addicted and when I decided to quit….I just did with no problems. I do FIRMLY believe that all of these behaviors are a result of my use of e. If anyone reads this…..please think again before taking it. There are serious long term effects!
Hi. I’ve done one pill of e so far, at a rave a month or so ago. I am going to another big rave in a month or so and plan on taking e there, just one or two pills.
I am just really really afraid that I am going to get addicted. I have some confidence in my ability to restrain if I know something is really bad for me, but there will always be that nagging memory of how amazing the experience was, and the desire to relive it. I feel that I may end up telling myself, “Just one or two pills every once in a while is ok”, and then eventually taking enough pills over time and accumulating the negative long-term side effects…
I realize that to other people here just the several pills on one or two occasions that I have done/will do is nothing. But as I said, I am scared of becoming hooked. My first time on e was literally one of the best experiences of my life–full of energy, love, peace. It was a deeply emotional and religious experience. How can I walk away from something like that?
I guess I am seeking advice on ways to not become addicted, and on what a good absolute upper limit on the amount of consumption is.
my first roll was two weeks ago. i took one and it didn’t nothing so i took another one two hours later, i got a little giddy but that was it. I popped two for the next 5 days and finally got my real high on the 5th day. it felt amazing. i want more and more. I crush the first one so it hits faster then crush the second one about 20 min. later. I haven’t used since this past friday and its sunday. I dont feel like i’m hooked or depressed but i want that high again. its the best feeling in the world and without it i feel “not right”.. im not sure how long it takes to become addicted but is it still okay to pop a couple ?
the thing with the long term effects of e is that a lot of the time they seem pretty minimal. for me its a hightened sensitivity to depression, although not depressed. its the hamster on its wheel in my head that i really struggle to get to stop, leave and let me just experience the joy of life. its grinding my teeth at night so I wake with a stiff jaw and a headache that won’t quit without help of strong painkillers that I would prefer to do without. its over sensitivity to caffeine - even that found in the good chocolate - I have one too many (3) blocks of lindt 90% and feel like i’m on a mini e trip - sometimes not the good kind. even decaf affects me in this way sometimes and before e i used to drop espressos and sleep like a baby. its backache and a body that just doesn’t feel right and i’m not even 30 yet. all these started during my e-taking days - 1 year after i quit. i “only” did e on weekends, never double dropping or going silly, not doing other drugs, just enjoying the experience. I ate well before and after and “looked after myself” during (keeping hydrated, not mixing with alcohol or other drugs, giving myself the calming space during the down). my e taking days covered about 2 years, 19-20, and when i wanted to stop, i did easily. my sentiments used used to be like those of J’s (post in feb 2010) and i was actually grateful for the experience. but now i kinda wish i had looked after my body better. it was awesome at the time but that has robbed me of a lot of the awesome of now - the natural kick that life offers. i just can’t reach that place anymore, its like that well is just doesn’t have enough left in it. for me, its not worth it.
At parties, rarely will people tell the truth about Extacy: it is a life destroyer,
In my case, I only used E a few times, but still, it was the single worst decision I have ever made. I basically OD’ed one night on E, afterward, I was never the same, I blew out so much dopamine/serotonin that I loss the ability to feel joy, happiness, and compassion, I lost the desire to do even anything, and further was beset by terrible twitches. I have recovered after several years of searching a therapy which I found effective, but many years of my life have been lost, so much that I’d rather die and start again than to live to middle age. I missed out on too much cause of some stupid E. My conclusion about drugs is this: Alcohol and Pot is great. You can go for DECADES drinking and smoking everyday and still be OK. You cannot go for very long using E or Meth regular without suffering serious health problems and devastation. I have met many veteran E partiers who when queried will admit that E has left them with headaches, & physical damaged. I wish someone would have told me the truth about Meth and E back then, no one did, that they are life destroyers, and If you use them YOU WILL LOSE.
Smoke pot, drink beer, & nothing else - you will be OK.
XTC, what an illusion. All the sensations that people feel when they are E are just illusions based on nothing but an some chemicals that have been artificially induced to be released that make you feel great for a little while without no reason in reality to do so. Evey time you use E, you come back with a little less, until you can no longer feel happiness and all that is left is depression and misery. ETC is a very easy way to destroy your life.
You all are lame. You act like you did not know any of this when going into it. You knew exactly what you were getting into with the drug and the consequences from it. But YOU still chose do it. I take X about 1 or 2 times every other month or so or sometimes even longer in between.
Andrew, really? you are going to blame each drug use on the next type you did. Grow up. You wanted to know the feeling so you tried. And guess what you liked but have no self control over your mind and body and YOU let the drug control YOU not vice versa.
All this whining on here makes we want to get high right now
I have read all your posts. And it hit me. I did ecstacy once and it was about a week ago. It was a wonderful feeling and the high was intense but after reading all of your posts im never going to dance with the Devil again. My sister was an x user for quite sometime and now shes suffering anxiety, depression, loss of happiness and whatever else comes along with the effects. I for one will never touch it again. And thanks to this website you guys have changed the way i think and view things in life. Yes i strongly agree with jimenes its all an illusion not just x only any drug. Thank god i cam upon this website and read all this information. God bless all of you
Just found out my child (17) has done it 3x that she is willing to talk to me about. I am an addict (clean for 13 years) and I never tried E….I don’t want her to suffer the consequences I did in that world/environment and I don’t think she is willing to listen since I am “mom”….I am printing all the comments and letting her read them…maybe then she will understand I am not trying to blow smoke….or being lame….
well< im 17 ive popped about 120pillz with in the past year i think. but i think i mite be suffering from some sort of side-effects from them. my mind moves like speed racer, i just alwase have these thoughts going in and out of my mindd and over all its just changed my life. i just dont feel the same as i was. the first time i took 2. and cant even remember the nite. and every time after ive tooken between 4 and 6. Once i took raw MDMA too(molly powder)that changed me alot personality wise. Dont get me wrong i love the feeling of “e” and i do think people should try out the drug, and if you do onld do i once. just make sure you know what your gettin yourself into, Read up about it, and “roll” with someone whos already done it before, just for safty
I began taking E when I was 18. Like everyone else, I loved it.
For the 1st year I probably only took about 10 pills, but over the course of the next 4 years I got into selling it, so it was always on hand. I must have taken about 8 to 10 pills a month for about 3 years.
During my usage, the most prominent side effects I noticed were sudden equilibrium loss (not while on the drug, just out of nowhere) for a spit second, short term memory loss for the week following the usage, and sporadic episodes where I felt like I was on ecstasy, which would subside after 10 to 20 secs (scary).
Also, I’m pretty sure I’ve had a stroke or two (sudden vision loss in one eye, numbness in my face for a few secs).
I recently decided to quit (I’m 22) but I am nervous about the long term effects I will suffer. Can someone give me some good news?
It’s weird though because I don’t really regret taking it. I feel like somehow God put this in my life for a reason whether it be to learn something, teach something, or simply provide me with a test of strength to practice self control in life by quitting.
I hope I don’t die.
I am now 29 years old and was a former e-head. Probably popped a few hundred pills in my lifetime, doing the party night club scene in Manhattan from 18-22 w/ a fake id.
Look, the drug is great, I wish I could trip on E every single day. E and lsd was the best drugs I ever did.
But it did ruin my life as well. I remember being in college class one day and I had a huge panic attack because being surrounded by so many people made me nervous I started sweating and ppl were asking me if I was ok.
Alot of people say they get anxiety and panic attacks years after they stop (because you DO get those often when you do E), the other day someone at my job asked me why I get nervous sometimes. Truth be told, I dont know about you all, but when I was in highschool I was a nervous wreck anyway which was probably why I did drugs to begin with, and Id probably still get some panic/anxiety and twitches (lol) even if I never did anything. Some ppl are just more antsy/panicky/twitchy than others in my humble opinion.
People also say that their mood has suffered from it, they don’t experience joy anymore, they feel hollow.
This is true as well. But the truth is, the drugs were great, we experience such a high from lsd/coke/exctacy or whatever choice drug you did, that you’ll never experience that high again and everything else seems kind of boring to us compared to the average folk who consider having 3 drinks at a restaurant a “wild night out”. The simple way of life is boring for many..going bowling, going to the movies, dinner, spending time with family, staying in and watching tv on a saturday (shocking right?)..it’s alot different.
Deep in my thoughts, I still remember those great highs I experienced on drugs, but I have to remind myself that living the average, cliche and simple type of life can be fun as well and you just have to accept it, the joy’s of life will come back to you again like it did for me.
My new drug in my life is traveling and vacationing, taking things easy now, not taking anything for granted, etc. I actually enjoy doing the stuff we all considered “boring and lame” when we were on drugs. I moved away from the city and the clubs and live in a really rural area and love the nature now as opposed to clubs, buildings, crowds, parties, nightlife, etc.
I wish I never did drugs, specifically exctacy, but I did, I accepted it, some of my best times were from it, and now Im ready to enjoy the next part of my life. Sometimes I find myself telling old stories of what I used to do back in the day and the average person would be shocked, but a part of me is glad that I did go through it, because I can say I experienced everything. Maybe one day I will have a family of my own and if I do, I’d be able to help my kids better in their high school years because I understand what its like living in today’s environment, the pressures, etc.
I am not a frequent user of ecstasy but i have done it 3 or 4 times. There was a time where i took two one night, then took two the very next night. Why i did this? I have no clue. I think back on my why i did it and cant believe that i did. Its not until the last time i tripped that i realized what i was doing to myself. The trip was so bad i didnt go to sleep and i worked that morning. Since then i have been knocking over things at work, not listening to what people say, i’ve been so angry i almost fought one of my best friends last night over nothing. This drug has seriously impacted my life and I am on my way to getting better. But it will take time. So if anyone is reading this please think twice before popping your next pill. It will change your life.
If I could go back in time to that first time I ever tried Exctacy, I would have NEVER done it. I had no idea then the long term effects that I was having on by mind and body. For anyone who is thinking about trying it or quitting it, pleeaasse know that you are dramatically changing your perception of the world around you in a very bad way and will be lucky if you don’t end up with a foggy brain somewhat like a hangover for years if not forever.Its just not worth one night of fun a few times even.People doing it will always be looking for others to do it with them and they will convince you that you HAVE to try it. Instead of listening to them, ask somebody who USED to do it and has stopped years ago. I struggle with depppression and anxiety on a regular basis although I have gotten better through the years. I think about it though, and the worst part is wondering what damage was done and I’ll never know for sure so it’s much better for you and less stressful on your entire life if you just don’t worry yourself about trying such a stupid thing.
im quite young and ive done e, quite a bit and im already going to court for it , the thing about it is the trips can either be really fun or you can have a bad trip and you feel so shiitty. or you just get plain emotional. its not worth it, once you try e being happy sober is almost not enough. cus everything is so much better on e. the thing is you cant get addicted to the drug, you get addicted to the feeling . and i remember my first time trying e, i suggested the idea to my friend all pumped up cus i really wanted to try it, and i regret that. everyone will want you to do it if they do it , but if youve never done it DONT TRY IT. it messes with your spinal fluid and your brain. i remember the 3rd time i did e i remember as i dropped a 2nd pill that night my baack hurt so bad like i wanted to cry , and once you come down you feel so sad. like serriously you can talk to anyone about anything theres no barriers which is why i love the drug, but then the depression when you come down and days after makes you hate it with all your heart. so if your reading this and youve never tried e and your trying to find out what it does to you or how to do it safely. there is no safe way you can drown yourself by drinking water and if you dont drink water you can dehydrate you will probably be ok, but it will lead to an emotional addiction which is not worth it, please just take my advice DONT DO E! or anything else, if you have to do drugs stick to non -chemical drugs (weed, mushrooms)
I jus want to say a few of your storys touched me and “anonymous” yur teen yrs didn’t go to waist cuz now yu have a story to tell that will hopefuly help others. I’m 16, and I’ve only took and e once in my life I’ve smoke weed wen its offered but that its. Although wen I took it I felt amazing I never did it again becuz I kno there addictin n I didn’t want to be hook, but wha I rlly want to say n get some advice on is for my boyfriend, he’s 17 almost 18 he has been takin e sine last summer I think I don’t think more than 20 he smoked week every single day n drank over the weekends sometimes e pills were jus occasionaly. So about 2 months ago he took e, he smoked n he drank, he claimed one of “friends” put somethin in his drink n that the weed might have been spiked. 2 days later he told me he felt like he was still on it n that he was buggin n that’s wen his mom got invovled he went to his therapist n they gave him anti depresants n shit for like 2 weeks he was rly paranoid n scared of somethin happenin to me or his mom becuz last year he had problems with some ppl n he got stabbed so that’s were some of the fear came from. Then one afternoon we were wachin a movie n he all on meds so he was drousy nd out of no where he started shakin like tremors I thought it was a sezire but it wasn’t the paradetics took him to the hospital he was in and out of the hospital for a week but this like he had to stay he was in there for a good week and no one knew wha was goin on so wen he got the tremors they jus gave him more meds to relax n put him to sleep then after that week they put him in the phyc place upstair for 2 more weeks (I saw him everday x3) I saw how him being in there jus made him worse they changed his meds like twice. Wen they sent him home he did fine that first day but now he hasn’t come out for like 3 weeks that’s he’s been home he dosent talk he never wants to have sex he ignores everyone all day unless yu try to talk to him its like he’s gone n I rly do love him I jus don’t kno wha to do anymore wha to say I reached out to him a few times n he’s reponded he dosent even want to kiss me anymore he’s always washin his hands like if he’s scared of germs. He says I jus need to give him time but idk how I should jus be there its rly stressful I want to help him but I don’t kno how to he shows that’s he cares in his own way but he’s not the same anymore at all I’m scared becuz I don’t kno if he’ll ever come out of this I miss him so much, he’s a good person he rly is he’s so kind n thoughful he wanted to get his shit together until that one night, I need answers I been lookin for them everywhere there’s no one to talk to my friends aren’t rly wha yu would want to call friends my fam.. I’d rather them not even kno since there so judgin . I’m sry this is so long there jus no short way to say it I’ll appriciate some advice .
I forgot to mention that he has anxiety too and the tremors went away, also he smoked weed everyday for like 6 months not the whole year .
E helped me get off heroin so if you think about it it saved my life. And I’m not saying that I replaced heroin with e. I only roll about 1 to 2 times every two months or so. It just showed me that I still could go out and do fun things like going to clubs and raves. As for after effects I feel a little dumb for a day or two after but that quickly subsides. I think in moderation it is not that harmful of a drug. Over use can be devastating though. Ive seen it with my own eyes.
Im 18yrs old and ive done my share of thizzing when i was 16 and then i kept on doing it, since i never thought much of it, and they were all free. But i didnt do enough to fuvk up my brain THANK GOD! Im still the same person and im lucky i stopped before i couldve got worse. My boyfriend who 18 , however has done more then 100, i know that but i cant stand to here how many hes acually taken, im so glad he stopped. I know he has anxiety attacks and problems sleeping because of it. It makes me hate drugs so much. FOR All those teenage kids out there who dont think it will harm them, your wrong. Stop before it to late. Its not worth losing to real self in.
I did not put my acctual name because of how old i am. I am 14 years old and I recently decided to start a sober life. At the age of ten i took my first hit of a ciggerate. after a couple of months i was addicted and still am. after my body buzzez went away i started experimenting with drugs. it started with weed then salvia then opium then adderal then methadome then mushrooms then EX then acid. I know that to most people this will come as a shock because of my age. Im not going to get into any of the other drugs but i can honestly say ecstacy has really fucked up my life. I used to be a happy boy with all my friends playing football everyday after school. Now.. i have lost all of my old friends they cant even stand to look at me. I got kicked out of school, because i brought a half oz of mushrooms to the 8th grade. all my friends are 18+ and there all about to move on with their lives and leave me behind. I’ve done well over 70 rolls. On fridays i would start out with one or two, Saturday i would pop one snort one and parachut another one, sunday i would pop about 4-6 rolls. by monday morning i was so damn depressed all i could think about was how i was going to kill myself. It was only a weekend thing for me. Still 8 months later i still have thoughts of suicide on a regular basis. I am 14 years old.. i have the rest of my life to live like this. 17 days ago i quit all my drugs and drinking habbits. Depression hit me harder. I have such server panic attacks it feels like my brain is being smooshed together. and i cant breathe. Ive never had anxiety problems till i quit being an addict. i think because all day everyday my body was numb i didnt realize what the ex was doing to me. i have a heart problem. that i never knew about till about a week ago. i blame the ex. its hard to remember what i used to do as a kid. dont get me wrong, i still am a kid but it deffinetly doesnt feel like it anymore. i feel like an old man. ive never told anybody how i feel but after hearing your guy’s stories i felf comferable enough to speak of it. to the people who are questioning ex. please please please dont do it. i have to live the rest of my life like this. everytime i think of what i did in the past year i get more and more depressed. im on probation becuz i broke into a truck and stole 7 grand. all because i needed money for my drugs. I often wake up every morning and just lay there till someone comes and gets me up because i dont see any reason to get out of bed anymore. i believe i will never be as happy as i once was. i hope that this gets out to the people who want to try doing ex or any drug for that matter. Ive never spoke of this so it feels a little better now that ive told all of you about this. please write. i dont have much to look forward to each day. KW
I have a strong recommendation to all of those that are suffering from the long term effects of E or other drugs.
START EXERCISING and eating healthy. And by exercise, I do not mean 30 minutes a day 3 times a week. I mean serious exercising, 5 times+ a week an hour each session, and make it count. Do not underestimate your bodies ability to rebuild itself. Give it what it needs and craves in good eating and regular strong exercise and your body will thank you by producing the right hormones and rebuilding things you thought were destroyed. I also urge you to begin mental exercising, do puzzles, play memory games etc. Your brain WILL improve the parts of the body that you use. Damage from E may be great but can be partially reversed if you do right by your body.
If you do this, you and your body will be thankful, this I promise. I know it will be hard at the start because your motivation will be low due to the damage caused by the E, try to find a partner willing to go the distance with you in your new healthy lifestyle and you will be rewarded.
hello, i’ just turned 16 years old and I’ve done e 5 times 4 of which when I was 15. I really really regret every single pill I’ve ever dropped. I think they really messed me up for good.. I don’t even thinkthe same anymore I used to be so happy about everyhing, so optimistic and full of life and ambition. but now all my brain does is think. and think. and think. and I absolutely hate it.
I never stop thinking about evey little thing. I overlook everyhing, everyone. and I don’t want to. I want to be back to normal but it just seems like happiness is so far away from what is going on right now. I’ve had so many suicide thoughts and I don’t think any of my rolls were ever worth it. my friends want me to roll win them again this September but I don’t know if I can take any more feeling like this. I really hope by the time I’m older and want to have kids and settle down, I’m not all Fucked up from all the shit I’ve done to my head.
if you know what’s good for you please don’t put yourself through this bullshit I’m in just for a couple fun nights win your friends
Basically I popped my first pill last night, obviously I liked it. The come down really wasn’t bad and I worked this morning with almost no problems aside from being a little overheated. I took a nap when I got home and now I feel fine being less than 24 hours later.
I’m not interested in some sob story of an addict and I don’t want advice from someone who doesn’t know what they’re talking about. I want to hear a story from someone who just did like 10-12 pills a year maybe over two years max.
I’m in college, it’s a fun drug, and it’d be nice to do it once a month maybe every other month just for a year. Would this give me any longterm side effects or are most these people with depression getting it from using like 20 or more pills a year which is so stupid? And please don’t tell me I’ll get addicted, I just want some good advice and to know whether this would be dangerous. Thanks.
So for those experiencing long term side effects and have been on antidepressants which ones have you had the best experiences with? I’m 44 and have had two periods of my life that I over indulged in the drug. Once in the late 80’s then again in the late 90’s - 01. I have bad anxiety, depression, panic…..my mind races out of control all the time and i can’t control it to the point it makes me feel sick.
I have been on all of the anti’s they all work for a while then fizzle out kind of quick. I guess i have had the most success with Cymbalta. Pristique worked well too just way too expensive.
I started using at 15, raised in Vegas, at raves and parties. Its an addicting lifestyle. I ended up getting kidnapped and raped before I pulled out of the scene. Ten years later I still feel a general haze from the couple years of ecstasy abuse. My memory is not sharp, I ask the same questions within 5 minutues of each other… I feel like I have ADD, but I was a 4.0 kid until I started to party. And none of those party friends stuck around, by the way, because they aren’t real friends. No friend would let you destroy your mind and put yourself in danger. I have anxiety and breathing problems and used to feel as if I saw demons on people. I also used to wake up in terror. Those things have gotten better, but life was a nightmare for years. Natural healthy eating, studying herbs and plants and spices… exercise, learning to play instruments, and time devoted to God and prayer has healed me as much as I can be, but I’ll never be 100% again, and it’s a constant reminder when I feel myself losing it. I have to just recognize that the things I’m experiencing are a result of brain damage and fight through it every day.
I wish someone wouldv’e stopped me when I was a kid and only cared about being cool and making friends and “sharing the love” and being ’scene’. It’s a fantasy lands that turns into a nightmare once your stuck in it. Don’t dance with the devil.
E affects everyone differently. Most people are not able to sleep after coming down. I fall asleep very easily. Every time I have rolled i’ve taken minimum 3 hits. The next day I feel borderline retarded but that subsides quickly. I have also only experienced a “come down” once. I beleive the reason i felt a come down on that occasion was because I rolled for 2 days straight at coachella. over those 2 days I took around 12-13 hits. Thats alot of E in a short amount of time. Another interesting thing I noticed about that comedown was the nature of my life at the time. I was doing very poorly in school, my relationship with my family was terrible and once the E wore off all of those componets all hit me. The next 2-3 days following coachella were rough. I was depressed about life. I got better and life went on. I went to EDC a few months later. During the time period of EDC, i was happy with myself. I rolled balls (6 hits), had a great time, fell asleep very easily (got around 7 hours of sleep)and woke up feeling like crap physically. But emotionally I was fine. I might be all over the place when writing this but what I am trying to say is people experience different things while taking this drug. You should never take drugs to make depression go away. thats what i did at coachella and that was the only time ive had a come down. As for the long term affects who knows what it does. If anyone reads this I highly recommend watching a documentary by Peter Jennings called Extacy Rising. It is very interesting. And everyone remember, EVERYTHING IN MODERATION.
right after i dropped out of school when i was sixteen some of my friends started rolling face, poppin’ pills, droppin e, whatever you wanna call it, but it was nothing serious, on the weekends, one pill per person. then everyone started doing it, one by one all of us joined it. until we were all doing it, some more pills then others. we would feel like such crap the next day we would just keep doing it every night. when we couldnt find it we would freak out and have nothing else to do. our lifes consisted of doing e every night. we would drive an hour some nights just to get it. im not going to lie, the feeling is amazing and i loved it but i was doing it behind my boyfriends back. when he found out, everyone kinda stopped. and i felt like crap all the time. all of us stopped hanging out because we really didnt have anything in common now that we all stopped using. i did it once or twice after and i loved it. but hated the morning after. then, the last time i did it, i had a bad trip. i was so pissed off the whole time, sick to my stomach the whole time, and crazy anxiety. i will never touch e again because of that. it turned me off, i probably would do it again if i knew i was going to have a good roll, but after that bad one i just never would do it again. as for long term side affects, i guess i am lucky or maybe didnt do it enough to be affected. my life was pretty crazy when i was using but ive straightened everything out and i am in college now, have a job, and my own car.
Ecstasi is something I did in a college a bit but I was really more into the hippie type of drugs for mind expansion. I read a lot of Huxley and Richard Alpert who did mescaline and lsd for mind expansion. It is amazing how a drug can make your state of mind change so much. I guess that is why so many people take zanex and attivan. But it does show that our misery isn’t necessary and the mind can change our reactions when we alter our perceptions and get beyond our boundaries.
This year was my final year of high-school. Rather popular and trying to stay that way, all through my teens I had smoked pot and cigarettes, not to mention the every weekend binge drinking at parties. This year my best friend had introduced me to the drug ecstacy. I have always been the one to say no to any new drugs and was simply happy with the way everything was, but the way he had described it to me; with feelings of being invincible, superman like etc. (which aren’t really true)had me enticed. I then went home to research it, and its negative side effects; nothing that seemed too crazy too handle (after all i was smoking pot everyday).
So that weekend we were at his girlfriends house, and she had invited all her girlfriends over. Little did i know that the plan for the night was to get crazy on E. So i tried it and like anyone who has done it can relate; it was the most definitely one of the funnest nights of my life.
To this day i have done E maybe a good 10-12 times (each time trying to recreate the fun i had the very first time), but when i did i would often do around 10 hits, anything else was pussy to me.
I would experience great feelings of anxiety in school and at home often around a week later. I found that i almost had developed this switch that could easily go from nothing to a short period of rage; and eventually got so bad i found myself punching over 20 holes in my walls and doors, to at one point my mom was arguing with me and i threw a glass at our expensive dining room table as hard as i could (because she wouldn’t stop nagging me-good excuse right?)
i haven’t done it in over say 6 months, but the effects now are much different then before. I no-longer find myself at a high anxiety level ( back in the day i thought i might even accidentally kill someone ) but i definitely am experiencing not depression - but a lack of happiness. I am not sad, but i am very rarely happy or smiling. Feel like my brain is so cloudy i couldn’t even tell you what i had for dinner last night, not even breakfast this morning. I feel like i have lossed half of my personality, I am also very paranoid- always waking up to the slightest sounds thinking someone is gonna rob me or something. I am sure alot of these effects can be derived from my marijuana consumption - but let me tell you i can guarantee that 90 percent can be linked to E, as i only smoke pot now like once a week.
So to the person reading this who is going through some of the same things i am; the paranoia will get better if you stop smoking weed haha but the other effects are pretty much there to stay for now it seems ( the personality part getting worse and worse ). and to people who haven’t The only advice i can give is that you can’t try it even once….cuz i guarantee it will be the only thing on your mind for the next month.
And “in” your mind for possibly forever.
Another note of caution: don’t take it (or any other drug) if you have psychological problems / severe trauma, etc., unless you’re around therapists who know how to deal with that situation. I hear it can bring up really bad things really intensely. Also don’t take it as an escape from daily life - that’s a great way to become addicted.
Its one hell of a drug when your doing it. I have tried every drug there is. Its not worth it though.I started Etc I when I was 17, I went on hard for a summer couldn’t even tell you how many pills i did. ( i cant remember) After that everything went down hill. It ran right to heavy uses of cocaine, to acid, to mushrooms, to others that i tried at festivals that I didn’t even know what i was taking it was fun but not worth it. Im 19 now and i smoke weed and drink. I haven’t done cocaine for at least 5 months witch i am very proud of. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could go to college but I know there is no way in hell mainly because of my memory I don’t remember half the stuff i learned. it really sucks and it brings me down all the time suicide goes through my head all the time. All I want to say is dont do it. Smoke weed and drink but dont do the others it never brings anything good. Right now In my life I have started my own landscaping company but im having one hell of a time tring to run it mainly because of my memory. I have so much more i could say about drugs but it would go on for hours just Stop do it for yourself, your family, your friends Just Do It.
i started taking ecstacy when i was 17. ive only taken it on like 7 or 8 occations at raves but each time i took at least 6 or 7 throughout the night.me and my boyfriend both expirenced one of the weirdest comedowns off of the drug for up to at least a week after we took the drug. we were severly paranoid and constantly woke up out of our sleep in fear of something attacking us? call me crazy but we were really in fear of some entity trying to get us! i told myself i would only try this once but it seemed like everytime i would rave it just wasnt the same unless i “rolled”. i use to see nothing wrong with doing it but i noticed the more i did it the more guilty i felt. i havent suuffered and bodily damage. but i do forget simple things and am a little more delayed then i was before i took the drug.overall ecstacy has made me come out of my shell and interact with people on a whole different level.. i do regret taking an illegal substance but i dont regret the new friends, magical nights and wonderful bonds ive made with people…
my story is similiar to many of yours i’m a 16 year old and i was addicted to exstacy for a year or more. and i started at either 14 or 15 i can quite remember. my memory is completely shot and its a hard thing to say since growing up, which i’m still doing, but i was in all advanced classes and i dumbed down quite a bit. i’ve done almost every kind of perscription drug you can name, coke, basically heroin in a pill, been a pot head and an alcholic all before the age of 16. i let it get the best of me and tear me apart. i lost friends and family. i lost my patience, my niceness, my everything. it’s like i was a completely different person, and i realized how bad i was changing and didn’t stop. i’ve done e not quite 100 times, but close. and it’s scary to think i started so young and screwed my self up so bad. i’ve been diagnosed as clinically depressed, ODD, anger issues, communication skills, and at times there are days when i can’t spell basic words or speak in a basic sentence bc of how screwed up my brain is. and remember this is coming from a girl who was an honor student. never missed a day of school until drugs became her main priority. things got rough for me. i can happily say i’m 7 months clean of e as of september 13, 2010. and that i no longer smoke, drink or participate in any other drug use. also i attend counseling to help better myself and hopefully see myself catching a little bit of my old happy cheery self again instead of being a miserable teenager who only wishes to die all the time. i hope this makes people realize that yes e is fun, but it’s only fun once. after you abuse it, it ruins. and i’m not exaggerating, ruins HUGE parts of your life. i’m not even a complete adult yet and im experiencing problems most grown people don’t ever live to experience. and it saddens me alot to know i’ll never be able to look at myself in the mirror and see the same girl i could of seen 3 years ago.
I took e’s and near enough anything I could get my hands on 10 years ago. E’s were my drug of choice. I must have took at least 500 pills in my life time, maybe as many as double that. I think it did cause me to have really bad depression for a few years, I never realised it was the reason why at the time. But now im fine, im happy and have a degree from a good uni. I dont seem to have any major long term effects. appart from not having the best short-term memory, but I think i always had a bad stort term memory anyway. There is hope, you just have to completely stop taking things, see a doctor, and most of all give it some time. I dont want to encourage anyone to take e’s, but i read a few posts from people who think they will never get out of the depression, i want them to know they can and will get through it.
ok so I first took ecstacy when I was 15 and took it a few more times at 16 then wasn’t reslly into anything but smoking weed or hash up until I was 19 then I startrd “rollin” or takin ecstacy again first every other weekend then every weekened until around the time I hit 20 then it was an everyday habit I got all my friends to try t one by one I thought it was a joke kinda and now a 2 years later and haven’t rolled for 2 months I realize how many short and long term affects there are I have no memory short or long term I can’t rememeber a damn thing unless I put it in my phone or someone reminds me I had a battle wit depression for this past are months and I’m just gettin over that now since I started rollin I probably have taken over 6000 pillss without joking I have taken so many of every different shape color logo or symbol it’s ridiculous..if you want my opinion about trying “e” do it up you will have a blast just remember it does fuck you up in the long run and you don’t wanna get hooked try it once and leave it at that or don’t try it at all…all I can say is I had my fun with “e” maybe to much fun but I will never take e again be smart everyone!
My first pill was the summer of 09. i popped one pill, then 2 days later popped another and got hooked from my second pill. the next 5 days i popped 10 pills 1 on mon 1 on tues 2 on wed 2 on thurs. and 3 on friday. I loved it at first, so much love it gave me never bored b.c i had so much fukin serotonin in my head. it didnt stop there, i kept poppin pills for a couple more months and i started to become extremely delusional. As if everybody was my best friend, i would talk to people like i knew them for years and have stupid conversations and on top of tht i started to get really anxious. i would think about something nd get tht tingly feelin all over my body. For example if i would be chilling with a shorty i would start to think about sex and start twitching cuz of the anxiety from being excited. It also changed the way i view the world in a bad way. B/c the pill made me so sensitive little things of everyday life has made me so sad. I feel depressed cuz were all meant to do the same thing. If you think about it we all work to make money/survive make kids nd take care of them then we die. Thts sooooo wack. I havent popped a pill since the beggining of the year and its sept. now i still feel depressed and still have the same aniety and involuntary muscle contraction daily so annoyying!!! But i feel like im gettin better as the months go by. Extacy has also fuked up my memory sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!! If your introduced into extacy and are thinking about taking it you have to make yourself a promise that you will never take more then 10 pills. And skip 2 days in between. cuz i think im all fuked up b/c i took it reapeateadly. for half the week i didnt eat so i could feel the E pills and drink so much fukin organe juice i think i spent like 200 dollars in one week on pills and juice. DONT DO IT! IF YOU DO TRY EXTACY ITS SOMETHING THT SHOULD BE DONE NO MORE THEN 3 TIMES CUZ AFTER THT ITS REALLY JUST BAD FOR YOU!! My memory is soo bad thts the WORSE THING OF ALL IF I COULD AT LEAST HAVE MY MEMORY BACK LIKE I USED TO I WOULDNT REGRET it tht much ,POPPING ALL THOSE PILLS I TOOK. AND I ALSO HAVE A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN NOW I CANT CONCENTRATE FOR NO MORE THEN 5MIN I START TO DAY DREAM AND THINK ABOUT STUPID SHIT!!!!! DONT DO IT TAKE IT ONCE OR TWICE IF YOU DIDNT GET THT LOVE FEELING THE FIRST TIME BUT STOP THERE. JUST DO IT FOR THE EXPIERENCE. iTS NOT A VIDEO GAME OR PUSSY TO BE DOING IT ALL THE TIME. TAKE IT FROM PEOPLE WHOVE GOTTEN FUKED UP. IF IT diDNT FUK ME UP I WOULD SAY ON THIS EVEYBODY HERE IS DUMB AS HELL TAKE ALL THE PILLS YOU CAN GET BUT IM NOT.
Indeed ecstasy has long and short term effects. Unfortunately I have rolled up to 20-25 times. Its a hard trend to break from. Sophomore year was when I was introduced to the drug. Oh, and was it amazing. At the time, that is. The satisfaction of the moment truly was a great high, but the days after most deffinately take a toll on me. Although I have had anxiety and self-esteem issues before trying the drug, ecstasy has, in my opinion, made these issues much more hard for me to control and have became worse after the excessive use of this drug. I’m not saying that Im a complete idiot, nor that I am a genius, but the drug has fucked up my thought processing and my ability to learn and comprehend. I don’t suggest that anyone try this drug, yeah, its fun at the moment. And no, Im sure some people don’t become addicted to the feeling and develop the urge to keep doing it, but if you are one that has an ‘addictive personality’ I suggest you stay away from this drug. Fortuantely, I have slowed down A LOT since my junior year of high school, and I am doing my best to discontinue my use of drugs.
Hey guys, A lot of these stories moved enough to post. Ecstasy is high that nothing can compare too and once you’ve used it normal life doesn’t seem the same. Ive rolled around 20 times and the last time i took 7pills and blacked out and my leg went numb for a month. Since that night ive started to change my life back but my memory is cloudy and i’ve had to deal with anxiety and depressive behavior. I’ve been an avid raver for a year and it was a wonderful time, but that life catches up to many people. For all those trying to change there lives i am with you and it only gets better in time. For now we just cross our fingers and hope we didn’t take too much
I will recommend to every single individual on this earth to not use E as escape drugs. I used it for almost good 3yrs and now i am paying the price. Lost of memory, anxiety and depression. I know that feeling you acquire from E is one of the best feeling at the begin. Once you are use to one pill, it will lead to 2 and than more and more. If u are in the begining stage i suggest u to quit as soon as possible, once u past that stage it will haunt u down. If i can start my life again I will never follow that route, it really effected me in so many ways in my life.
my advice is to never try x.i started using x around the age of 17 and contiuned to use till i was about about 28. i am 32 now. i was heavily into the rave scene and techno music. the first time i took only 1 pill as most of us did just to see what it was about. everytime after i was taking 5 to 8 pills every friday and saturday for 11 years, sometimes 1 or 2 pills on a weekday. the day after x always sucked with feelings of depression and just not having any energy but i was able to handle it and not let it interfere with everyday life. now at the age of 32 i am having problems that i cant explain but, ill try to for the sake of this post. i havent taken a x pill in over two years but yet i constantly feel like im comming down off of the drug. i am depressed, confused, i cant hold a job, i have severe pannic attacks, my whole body is in constant pain, im having some type of episodes where i feel like im dying. i just feel like im going crazy on a daily basis and the older i get the worse the paranoia gets. honestly, writing this post is taking everything i have in me because its so confusing to hold a thought and its very over wealming. its to the point where i cant think anymore. i have a doctors appointment in 8 days and will try to get some help.i feel like something is clawing at my brain and is pulling my eyes out, it really is that serious. i havent been on any other drug ever! i cant live feeling this way much longer, this is horrible and i wish i would have never taken that first pill to begin with.i am starting to feel worse now then what i ever did comming down off this drug when i was young. i think long term effects of this drug are more severe then what studies are showing. im not one of those preppy kids who cry about every little bad feeling they have or who make more out of something then what it really is.i have to keep telling myself i made it this far another 8 days till i see a doctor wont kill me but sometimes these feelings make that questionable. just do yourself a huge favor and dont do this drug. i will say that x has changed over the years, its not like it used to be and i think studies are showing the long term affects of what the drug is today. it was a totally different drug in the 90’s and early 2000
Jason, I feel your post reaching me. While I was not a large scale user, I began a year ago and used it about twice a week. The feeling was of nausea, where I knew it was kicking in when I had to throw up, then it was all about feeling happy and constantly marvelled by what I would see and hear. Two weeks ago I had a vacation from work and used it nearly daily. Everyday was only about planning my next evening on E, finding weed to smoke and anything else I would fancy. Then I had a friend make me realise that I cancelled all my other stuff, and people didn’t see me despise the fact I was on vacations and wondered if I was out of the city, yet all I did was sleeping and doing E. When I wanted to stop and take it less as I did before, my body just refused and I had violent panic and paranoia attacks. I remember the last night, I was curled up between two sofas, hiding from the window. The E is an INTENSE feeling but the payoff is damn NOT worth it at all. It feels harmless when you take it but the very moment you will find yourself without, you’ll suddenly be ready to do plenty to get more, and it will seem ok to you. Suddenly asking money from friends, get in debt from your pusher, it all starts to be all fine. For the record, I stopped BADLY wanting it only last friday, leaving me with one full week of evenings filled with anxiety and fear. The hardest thing when stopping is trying to find pleasure again, as your brain immediately associates E with pleasure. If you would watch a movie, you’d want to be doing that tripping. Then you subtly push everything else away because it feels so boring and mundane compared to it. It feels gray and dull. I thank God for trying so far successfully to stop before I lost my job and all my friends but it is VERY dangerous.
To show how much I wanted it… the monday when I suddenly got scared of myself and I did decide to stop, I took my little pillbox and tossed it down a ravine in the night. It took me three full evenings to stop thinking about putting boots on and going down to retrieve it. Every time I thought that I got even more scared of myself. Really, stay the hell away from this one.
The best thing to do if you are unsure of anything is to get help. I know people who have gone through just as much E or more than most of these posts and the few that have gotten help have really turned their life’s around. There is easy acsess to a recvoery center near you. Look it up online and going to a meeting or session really helps. All you have to do is take the first step. It can be the hardest one, but you will never regret it.
I forgot to add something. For those who are seeking advise for others that are addicted, you can go to meetings too. YOU can help them take the first step. Most organizartions accept people who are completly clean and sober.
lets see here. Im 20 and ive been doing e for about 7 years now. I started may 7th, 2002 it was my freshman year of high school and i needed a pick me up for a football game and i was a cheerleader and a few of the girls were doin it in the locker room. And they saw i was havin a hard time and thats when one of the girl handed me 4 triple stacked red buddahs and said this will help you out trust me just take them. They called them skittles than. So me bein young and nieve and wanted to fit it i did i took them like i had done them before. All 4 of them at one time when i should of only takem one. I remember bein out on the field and everything went blurry and i got this really weird feeling and my heart started racing next thing i knew everything went black and when i came too i woke up in a hospital with a tube down my throat. . But i didnt stop there. Unlike most people i craved more wanted more wanted that feeling again. I was hooked. Ive done molly and e bombs ive done a good 700 lines of molly in my life and at least 400 pills. I havent touched it in about 4 month now. And my heart is constantly racing im sick all the time and the shakes are permante now. This feeling wont go away im stuck with this. I didnt know what i was gettin myself into but i know now i will never touch it again.
wow i wishd i would of read this before i startd rollin maybe i wouldnt of done it i regret ever doing it in the short time i did it maybe 4 or 5 months i really cant remember how many pills i did but i know its more than 100 i was rollin literaly everyday i would start out taking one and the next thing i new i had a line of e in front of me just goin mad with it every 20 mins i was bustn another line or popin half a pill then doing a fat gagger but the crazyest i ever got was one nite i did 40 pills popd maybe 5 of em n snorted the rest i regret it im really messed up now i cant even leave my house without having panic attacks i cant socialize anymore i used to be a real good speller and good at math and now the simplest words i look at them and even if there spelled right they look wrong i cant even smoke weed anymore without goin on a bad trip and feeling like im rollin and i havnt done ex in a year somedays it seems like i have died and im in like sum sort of alternate reality and thats when im sober i cant drink alcohol no more cause i get smack backs bad and if anyone is reading this and has gone on a 12 hour roll without popin ex let me know kuz that wasnt fun the worst experience of my life i was so fuckd my girlfreind at the time wanted to take me too the hospital but i was so gone i couldnt even get in the car too anyone that is reaserching effects of ex before you use dont do it PLEASE dont use that drug you wont ever be the same.
I’m 16, but 17 in less than a month. I was using drugs from the age of 10. I saw what it was doing to my social life, my family, and my body. I could not tell you how my ecstasy pills or hits of acid i’ve done.. Im big in the Arizona Rave Scene, and thats where i ran into a big problem. I couldnt have fun with out drugs. From May 28th 2010 i was clean up untill two weeks ago when i dropped acid again, and what a mistake that was. It made me remember why i got sober in May. The thought of being “fucked” up just makes me sick. I’ve been in and out of rehab, and living on the streets due to poor choices becuase all i cared about was getting fucked up. I will never be able to replace my lost years, they’ve all gone to waste due to drugs,.
this drug is very bad…..it will take everything from you. It may not take your car, your house, your job but it will take what is inside you. I was hooked after my first pill. After i had my first pill there was not life without it. i have tried just about every drug under the sun but it was the E that changed me. I used it for 2 years on the weekends at raves, at parties, or even just at the swimming pool. I was in love with the way this pill made me feel. I ended up having to go to drug classes, therapy, and take mood stabilizers because of this drug. It tore me away from my friends and family; i caused them so much pain. I finally decided to stop after having a seizure in church after a weekend of raving. I hit my head and paramedics had to come and my face went gray and my tongue came out of my mouth. I laid lifeless on the floor and everyone thought I had died. even now its still hard because i think about E and I think about how in those moments that is the happiest I will ever feel…..it makes anything else seem so meaningless…..never try it…enjoy the good in life without it….because there is no turning back after just one pill……
I have been using E for a lil over 4 years now and have takin 2 many pills to count i am 18 now and have not alot of memory of the past year. I did E only a few days ago and still hate what im doing to myself. Im in a government job corps center where i am trying to turn my life around. But every time i go home i want to rave and do E. Im addicted to this drug and dont know how i can get off it without going and getting help wich i cant do while im at job corps. I love reading everyones stories it makes me feel not alone in this world. I see alot of my friends yunger sisters and brothers trying it for the first time and tell them never to do it and turn out like me. It hurts inside me when i see kids at the age of 13-14 doing E even know i was doing it at that age. I really need to kick this habit. I thank eveeryone who has posted there stories to share with the world. Im hoping that other people reed this and know that this is a drug that will fuck you up mentaly.
i read alot of these post, & they are pretty serious. I don’t think i will get to that point tho, you never know but i hope i dont . I tryd my 1st one at 15, a quarter of a tripple stak my friends split with me, i got a happy feeling & the reason i took such a small amount was cuz i wanted to make sure my body wouldnt denny it , pretty smart . i was fine
very good feeling then i did half the next time then a full & i’ve done full ones like 3 times . my 3rd time doing a full one didnt really work & i think its cause it wasnt a tripple stak . well i do get pretty bad come downs but never deppression . just drowsy week ugh feeling . i cant sleep till the next day , when u get to the point of having to take 4 or 5 to roll i think you shld take a break. when i roll at clubs it is alot of fun i love raving & the music n ppl but sometimes i stik sooooo HARD im stuk like i cant even move, i drink water like crazy but no matter what im on i never loose control im always aware . i do realize that my memory does suck , but when ur roll is wearin off i wld say smoke some urb & you will feel alot better, i smoke heavy ciggs when i roll too , i wld say this drug is a once in a blue moon type of drug an you will b okay . remember that 1 pill fuks something up in ur brain that wont work currectly for another 6 to 8 years later . please research the things you do before hand . be smart .
All of these stories are reaching out to me so much & i realize what the other side of E is. I’m 15 & have rolled several times and thought E was just so amazing and “glamorous” you could say. I had been undergoing severe depression in 09 and started smoking cigs and weed and drinking a lot early this year, during the summer my depression was better but then I was introduced to E by my best friend and of course I thought it was the best thing in the world. Starting from then and when school started I was a heavy partier and just all about getting fucked up, although I was careful not to use anything too much cuhs I had to keep good grades in school. But I was rolling every weekend, blazing up every week, drinking…..my life soon started to revolve around getting fucked up and even though I wasnt addicted to E I just liked it a LOT, liked talking about it….all my spare time was spent thinking about the next time using, buying, etc. It drained all my money away since me & my best friend bought so many, and for our friends too. I also started experiencing anxiety and was irritable all the time, but the irritability may not have been from the drugs cuhs Im naturaly annoyed very easily esp bcuhs of my family.
I supposed I felt myself getting a little “slow”, I was slipping in school and couldnt remember things sometimes and didnt give a shit about anything except for partying. I did feel happier but if I Didnt get wasted every weekend Id feel extremely depressed. I really needed an “escape” from everything so I was obsessed. And my best friend was even more into it than me….I think our friendship began tp be built off rolling bcuhs whenever we hungout we did it. But it all came to an end one night when I was at my best friends house when her mom wasnt home, it was a bunch of people over and we all popped a thizzle. I had taken a long break before so I was excited to roll really hard. But then we got discovered at her house, my friend and I ran out of the house and our friend (who was not at my best friends house) picked us up & we went to his house. And I was terrified and seriously fucked up, Im pretty sure the pill had meth on it cause I was up for the next 26 hours. But everyones parents got called and everyone got busted & I got busted the worst cuhs I had pills in my bag. I thought the cops had found them and I was so scared,I was shaking and almost crying. In the end my parents came to pick me up and we had a long talk…..now Im grounded with no fone, etc and cut off from everyone and well E basically changed and almost ruined my life, i thank God that I didnt get arrested.
I dont really regret using E I simply dont want to rethink my entire life, I just want to focus on moving on. But I am extremely EXTREMELY irritable lately, one second Im happy and then one of my parents says/does one little thing and it sets me off like a bomb. I cant control myself, I snap at people esp my parents and sometimes even my bestftiends. Anger just wells up inside me like a pot bubbling over, its like a volcano and I cant do anything to calm myself down cept for some music. I feel almost bipolar, one second Im happy the next Im furious. I dont know if this is a effect of E or just bcuhs Im very angry all the time about being grounded, and my parents just piss me off like nothing else. im not happy or depressed either….maybe a little deprssed but I still laugh alot around my friends and am lighthearted at school. I dont crave or anything though, I dont wanna rol again. Im just always pissed. And I really dont know if these moods are cause of E, thats why i googled long term effects…Im scared they are and that E has literally changed ME.
Thats something Im afraid of. Just please if youre thinking about doing E, think twice and think again. Most dont realize the seriousness of this drug and if youre not careful you could end up in big trouble emotionally and also with thoae around you…..grow up a liytle and realize theres more to life than having it revolve around drugs ans partyinf. Coming from someone whose life used to do just that….Id still love to party and have fun and get drunk occasionally but dont make anything more important than you, esp not a drug.
I started having problems with my daughter when she was 14yrs of age. Her behavior had changed completely. She would lash out at me, kick holes in the walls and run away. I have a degree in psychology and have spent many years studying depression and anxiety. I thought my daughter was depressed, but she had never showed any signs of being really depressed. I just knew that she was using drugs because her pupils were dilated. I knew every time she used E’s because the side effects were overwhelming for the both of us. My daughter was always secretive and refused to open up to me. My daughter always went to school but she was academically failing. The drug might be satisfying but the side effects isn’t worth it. It is always important conduct research on street drugs as well as pharmaceutical drugs. I smoked weed a few times when I was a teenager and I know the weed smoking was the cause of my anxiety. We never know what is in drugs, so when we decide to take it, we our all taking the chances of possibly ruining are lively hood. The worse lost, is the mind. Life can be enjoyed without drugs. Drugs is what you call the dark-side of life. The usage of drugs in the future will only give a testimony to tell, for the ones who successfully overcome the addiction. My daughter is now trying to reclaim the life that she was intending to have, while faced with the difficult obstacles of the negative choices that she chose in her past. My daughter was hospitalized in a mental facility for almost two weeks, she has experienced paranoia, delusions, anxiety, as well as physical symptoms. She has showed some progress, since her break down a couple of months ago, but she’s not the same as she was before she started using. My daughter told me that she only used E pills a few time. Look what it has done to her. I truly believe that we all will fall in life, some will fall more than once before they wake-up, and some will never have the opportunity to fall because some don’t make it; (some lives will be cut short). The world is aggressive and is cluttered with more things that will be detrimental to our well being, then things that will be rewarding a prosperous to our well being. It is usually left up to the “self,” to decide their destiny because we all have freewill. However, there is something unique in everyone of us and that’s God, so we are all entitled to living a prosperous life, but because of our own carnal thoughts we invite negativity in our life. It doesn’t take a street drug to enhance our lives. It takes what’s deep inside of us to enhance our lives. I have chosen to be a leader, that’s what have saved me from the destruction’s of this world that we all reside in. Most of us follow the JONES and that’s what gets us into double trouble. The resources are available to open our minds we just have to take out the time to conduct the research. I believe it is foolish to do something that has caused such turmoil in the lives of so many and has taking the lives of so many. When we all can avoid the consequences if we just take a few moments of our time to go online and research street drugs. I must admit that it can be difficult for teenagers because of peer pressure and because teenagers are faced with the transition stage of becoming adults; that can cause a great deal of stress. For those who are trying to pursue their pursuit of happiness, just keep striving and forget about those who are still in the dark because most of your associates will not even be in your life when your an adult. Aim for the stars of victory, even if your might experience a period of struggle just keep going; eventually you’ll get there. No one ever said life would be easy. We will all face a storm but the end results will be well worth it. SAY NO TO DRUGS & TO THOSE WHO CONTRIBUTE TO DRUG: I wish you all will and I applaud to all the ones who gave their testimonies, that takes a great deal of courage; you all are the ones who will make it.
I’m 18 years old, tried e the first time when I was 15, but only started popping heavily for about 5 months from May to September of this year. I used to think that I knew what my limit was and that I could take the pill smartly through moderation. I’m just glad that I got out when I did, because I already feel long-term effects from using it. I notice my attention span is much shorter than it used to be. I space out and daydream constantly, and everyone around me notices. What I feel is definitely not as bad as a lot of people out there, but I know that I am an infinitely changed person because of my popping. I believe that taking it a few times in your life will not effect your mind in any great way, but just remember to seriously moderate what you take, because its easy to get carried away like I did.
But just so I don’t turn this story into another tragedy like so many here, I don’t think my life is completely wasted from popping. Though I know that I have definitely dumbed myself down, I do attend a great college and believe that I have still managed to forge a good future for myself. Just because your life may not be as good as it was in the past does not mean that you can’t go on and continue living it. And who knows, maybe your mind will fix itself with time?
I personally think that Mdma-Ecstacy is something that should be taken more seriously with teens. It shouldnt even be considered “cool”. If being cool means dying of any of these long or short term effects then you should know exzactly what to do. Most of my friends are addicts and i’ve learned from hanging around them that if your a teen reading this then you should try as hard as you can to STOP now. It would mean everything to your family, friends, even teachers or people that look up to you as a role model.
Listen to me all of you…ive done E so much that one night i woke up in some guys car, lying sideways on the leather seats. If you want to end up like me go ahead…but if your SMART you’ll be cool and stand up
Running around with your hoard looking out for a broad. Ducking and diving as the mob draws closer enjoying the moment of new found fame. One and all are looking out for the best of bargains while all the time you are been driven to hell. The nights grow shorter and the need for that first e-fix is forever elusive. Gone are the days when one would have done, now its the day of is six really enough! Topping up, bombing down followed by that long draw on the best of skunk no need now to get drunk. The alcohols gone replaced by a more fiendish friend who never relents as he pushes you on; like a train on the track going clickty clack while the brains all racked from the last jack. All strung out as you push your last e’s now its time to relax, but wait just a sec I’ve a bundle of money which isn’t that funny when people are packing and the crowds racking. Got to get home and hide the big stash, pay off the lay off before I get smashed. For those around you, you stare at the faces, all glistening with sweat and listening to the last dying beats. Groups racing off from house to the garage, old school and new school meeting at last for the final blast. Party on and party over the weeks reached climax as many can tell. The future’s uncertain for many out there but if their alive they will be at the next jive. Like a vampires need to return to the crypt I make for my den before I get ripped. Once through the door there is no escape as your parties starting when theirs is just ending when will this stop I will I end up topped. The words gotten out the invasion begins from the sound of the din. The doors a revolver as the groups filter in and the music grows louder it couldn’t be sounder. Clock ticks on as the picks go on spinning the discs is no easy trick. I look at the watch it can’t be that time. I’ve lost half a week wondering were did it go. The need is still growing, no sleep can I found I think it is time to lay down. The party is over at least for the time, if I had a dime for each time on this merry go round. I toss and I turn but I’m all burnt out of that I’ve no doubt what is there left after this great theft. A theft on the body, mind and the soul robbed in the night by no stealer in clothes. A robber of course but many won’t know as the years role by you will see its no lie. This is my story set down in a verse I hope that get it if it wasn’t that terse.
The previous two posts by me were a way of trying to express the regret that I have for my years of using and abusing. For those of you new to the e-scene it is definitely a draw as anyone whoever started on e’s will tell you. However, after that first few amazing and unforgettable fixes it quickly turns sour. Yet all the time you are chasing your first ever e-high and it’s not happening. When I finally left the scene the health problems hit me and now some 15 odd years later I am still stuck with bouts of depression, anxiety attacks, digestive illness etc etc. Why? Well put simply the body is not made to be put through constant abuse time and time again, so that we can fulfil some innate desire. I agree that there may be exceptions to the rule and some people will come through unscathed but for the most part it will not happen. Anyone of us on this forum who have abused for a period of 12 months or more will vouch for this with as I said a few exceptions. Also those who have other agendas like it’s is their business (like it was mine) the need to convince others that it is harmless is paramount to their business plan. No takers and business is bad, sales down the ones higher up the food chain get nasty if they are not getting paid out. Therefore, it is imperative that people try to pitch their sales talk as to attract customers. (more to follow)
For those who have made through unscathed and enjoyed the experience then you are the exception not the rule. I have personally witnessed attractive girls become victims of their own self indulgences. Everyone knows the effects of e and only recently in Canada a young girl was brutalized, humiliated and videoed after being spiked at a dance.
In my own city certain individuals would prowl around trawling for e victims.
Now, some 15 odd years later I am trying to put right the damage to my health which in some strange way seems like justice being served from my body to my soul. As one previous comment said, it is difficult to turn the wheel of in the head as it constantly seeks to rotate.
I am now heavily into herbal medicine as I came to realize that even the medical profession sorely lacks the expertise to deal with drug misuse and also lacks the knowledge. They wish to substitute one drug for another, and who profits? not the individual but the big multinationals.
Therefore, the best people to give advise to drug misusers are the misusers themselves. Just as we gave advice to each other on how to get the best buzz, the quickest high without the longest downer. I now provide herbal advice (of the legal kind) to friends and family.
One of the most important thing is that the body needs a detox, the nervous system and the immune system will also be shot to pieces. Therefore, you need to think about herbs that support the various body systems.
Cleaning the digestive tract all the way through the colon. Looking at support for the kidneys and liver with such herbs as milk thistle. Supporting adrenal fatigue with ginseng or astragulus. Drinking plenty of water, fresh juices and looking at mineral and vitamin supplementation.
In addition, getting a full medical from the doc just to make sure there are no hidden problems lurking in the background.
Finally, making sure that you get enough exercise and sleep along with a sound drug free social life.
I truly hope that someone, somewhere will benefit from this advice and will not end up down the road that many of this forum ended.
Have a happy life!
hi. So, I’ve never taken E before, but have the opportunity to do so in the near future. I don’t really do drugs on a regular basis (I’ve only smoked pot a handful of times, and I’ll have a few beers on the weekends with friends). I don’t have an addictive personality, and if I did choose to take E, it would just be a one time experience (an “I’ll try anything once” kind of thing).
My question is, will there be long term effects from only using once? Has anyone experienced things like permanent memory loss, back aches, or anxiety/depression after only dropping once or twice?
Just as a side note, I do already have a history of mild depression and anxiety (mostly anxiety). Do you think one use would permanently heighten my anxiety after I come down?
Also, in terms of short term effects, I have a new job to start two (three?) days after the party I’m going to. Would I be too fuzzy/depressed afterward to deal with the stress of a new job?
I was in the Tampa rave seen back in 1996-99. I have done over 100 e-pills!! If you think there are no side effects, Think Again!! Some mornings I wake up, and it is all I can do not to put my fist through the drywall. Serotonin is our brains natural anti-depressant. Serotonin comes from a gland in our brain. This gland is regulated by certain brain cells (Braim cells tell the gland to open when brain senses depression, pain).. This gland only has so much serotonin, the brain only has so many brain cells. Once our brain is emptied of its serotonin supply (which you would have to do thousands of hits to accomplish) then you will be in a deep state of depression..However, some cases (mine), the gland can be damaged, and can release serotonin when it should’nt and not release it when it should!! Just be wise and stay away from MDMA period.. If we were supposed to take X, then it would have passed as the appetite suppressant it was meant to be!!
I’m 23 almost 24 and have used e probably about 100 to 200 times. I’ve read a lot of the remarks left on this page and I can agree with most to an extant. E really actually has made me the person I am today. I have grown up because of it. All of my experiences with e have been…good. I know when to say no and when I feel it will be ok to use. I can admit Ive done some stupid stuff because of the way I acted while rolling but they are all memories I will NEVER forget. It has made me more confident with who I am and really brought me closer to people. Most of the beat times of my life I’ve had while rolling. I forget little things sometimes but for the most part my mind is still intact. For about 6 months after constant usage I was having pretty intense anxiety but it’s gone away and I’m a very happy person. I would say if u know how to recognize a problem with yourself then u will be able to tell when you shouldn’t take drugs. Exctasy will open up whole new worlds to u, but it Deff isn’t something you should use continuously. Every once in awhile isn’t going to turn u into a paranoid, depressed, crazy person. I think if u feel this way there might be some deeper problems you need to recognize. Unless you used e everyday all day, and I’ve seen an still do see people do this. Those people are crazy and do have mad problems. Just be catious I guess.
I’m going to a rave for new years and I plan on eating a couple doublestacks while i’m there. Ecstasy, like any other pill is only harmful if you allow yourself to think you don’t need to recover from it. You gotta let that shit clean out of your system, which takes about 48-56 hours, ya know? If you don’t give yourself time to properly detox after each use, you’ll slowly build it up in your system and then develop addiction, same with any drug. Which is why i’m addicted to adderol, vyvanse and amphetamine salts….. >_>
I’m 17 about to turn 18 and i took my first tab about two months ago and since then i’ve taken a total of ten pills. Recently i’ve had sharp deep random pains in my head that not even advil can take it away. Also, for the past few weeks i have woken up to lock jaw and cuts on my cheeks from grinding my teeth in my sleep. I have noticed a very huge decrease in my appetite and the only time i do care to eat is after smoking marijuana. I’m a daily smoker and i have recently noticed during my high i become very paranoid as if something bad is about to happen all the time. I can no longer crack my back by just turn, my spine has been giving me constant pain daily ever since my first pill. I can’t say i won’t do it again, but i recommend you think it over before you take it. I started with smoking, took xanax and then went to e. I love it, but the afterwards effects are honestly kinda scary. I have noticed i’m not myself also. My mood can go from good to horrible at the drop of a pen. The pain is ridiculous. prepare for many changes if you decide to take e regularly or even over time.
I just started using ecstacy last year during the summer when I was 19. I thought I was never going to do it but I did it. I don’t want to say I regret it because the times I’ve had with ecstacy were unforgetable. The scary part is that I get the feeling I’m gonna end up doing it again. The first couple of months I went crazy popping because I loved the feeling. In October I went to raves and clubs and I popped about 3 every weekend of that month. I think thats what really messed me up. I dropped some for new years and I couldn’t even feel the roll. I needed more to get the same feeling. or maybe its cause I’m completely drained of serotonin.
I catch myself daydreaming a lot and sometimes i cant even carry on a normal conversation because my mind wanders off. My mind is always racing, I have trouble sleeping, and my appetite is gone. I can’t even enjoy weed anymore because its just not the same. The high I get from weed now isn’t the same happy and giggly high. I just focus on my thoughts more and a lot of time they’re not positive. I am not interested in anything and I’m very unenthusiastic about most things. The only thing I look forward to anymore is popping again. Anybody that can connect to this and needs someone to talk to or just wants to talk hit me up at lgc42@yahoo.com
i was thinking about trying ecstasy just so i could feel what it was like. not for the attention. not for the friends. nothing like that. it seems like there are all these effects from it… but no one has really said what can happen to you after just once. so, what happens to you after just one try?
ecstasy is fine in moderation. i was taking x 4 times a week for about a month and a half. For example 2 pils on tuesday and thursday and probably 6 on friday and one time 9 on saturday. but thank god the rolls ran out of supply. they were cheap roles too soo idk what else was in them. at the time i was thinking nnothing bads gonna happen its a drug that goes away. ive been off them for a year taking one or two in the past 6 months. sometimes i feel really depressed mainly because of my girlfriend lol but thats the thing there are natural uppers and downrs in everyday life maybe it really enhances the downers and the upss arent as great anymore. but i have been feeling better conversation with friends are getting better and i went to a party recently and i was nervous because everytime i go its not good i went sober as can be and i wa very awkward at first and talked to people i ussed to roll with and i could barely talk i didnt know what to do but after about 15 minutes i felt fine i was me again! im not sure if my brain will ever fully repair which is a really lame but i am feeling better.
Also i belive exstasy or rolls mess up your dopmine levels too probably rolls becaus ethey put other drugs in them too. soo i have been doing everthing i can to help my brain, vitamins eating healthy, you have to get perscribed suff to rebuild dopimine but u can by other ways but its hard, but for seritonin they sell 5htp at vitamin world 5htp is the chemical that mixes with the chmical in your brain to rebuild serotonin. soo think about it! fix the daage that has been done and stay off everydrug out there!
Ecstasy has really messed me up. I’ve only used a few times and it caused me severe anxiety. I can’t be in certain situations without vomiting. It’s really hard to live a good life without worrying that you’re going to throw up all the time. My opinion is to ditch the E and find natural, legal ways to have better stamina. If I could return to that day and not have taken it, I would have. I wish my life would go back to normal .
hello buddys…im alexander…21 yrs old…done xtc like 60 times…im a big time raver…former pothead…
well one day i stopped doing everything wen i went to the hospital a day after i went to a rave i popped 4 pills that night…i smoked lots of weed…had fucked up chest pain i couldnt breath…panic attack…ect…i thought i was gonna die…doctor said it was nothing,anxiety attack…wat scared me was if i was fine y did i feel like i was gonna die…if he waouldve found something wrong wit me…ok…that would be a good reason…
so i stopped everything for months…so i still get anxiety attacks…stomach problems…and i thought i was the only one but ppl here mentiond thinking to much…crazy thoughts…depression…suicidal thoughts…not to mention paranoia…some rave djs and goverments devilish conspiracys…i gottem so into the spirtual world its become my reality…ive never thought i would till now…xtc is no joke its…it brings so much negative energy…and super bad health…not at the momment ur doing it but wen u want to stop…my friend just had it wit all that health stuff and crazy thiught,,,we dont know wat happen…she hung her self in her room…
R.I.P K…
Hello,
I’m 15 and I tried e for when I was 13. It turned my life upside down. It made me mentally hit puberty instantly. It is definitely the worst way to grow up and see what drugs do to you. After e, there is no such thing as interests. Everything is boring, and suicidal thoughts come to my head all the time. It is sick that a kid under 18 can even get their hand on a drug like e. My vision is horribly blurred and all lights blind half my vision. Never ever take ecstasy. It would be a better decision to jump off a cliff then to drop e. I’m serious. Dont take this drug. It will hurt your life in one way or the oter.
I’ve been doing E since I was fifteen later on I mixed it with amfetamins,koke, alcohol,weed everything,in 10 years I was active on house ,techno sceene I took about 300-400 pills a year and who knows how much speed probably couple of kilo’s mabe sounds incredible but I was not the only one ,and we were dealing so it was not a problem finacialy…Now I’m 30 and can proudly say that I am 5 years clean,but side effects are huge ,slower brain function ,depression,paranoid behaviour you name it. It ruined my life, recently It started to buzz in my head for no apparent reason and I have sensations similar to those of E and LSD but without the high.I am really afraid of what comes next maybe I’m loosing my mind but I deserve it in a way for DISRESPECTING my body in such a way.But on the other hand I was 14-15 years old and had unlimited supply and accses to drugs of all kinds…So I’m asking shouldnt there be more control over those substances by our gouvernments ,who deny the power to stop all this maddnes and probably use drugs for their own means,.,enough of the conspiracy theory all I have to say is IF YOU ARE STILL USING DRUGS BE CAREFUL AND LOWER YOUR DOSAGE COUSE IT WILL COME TO HOUNT YOU LATER!!!Thanks
First off those of you who posted who have no real life experience with ecstasy really have no basis for your opinion. Second people really need to stop blaming anything and everything that is wrong with your life or emotional problems on past drug use. Drug abuse is a symptom of a problem, not the cause. Thats like saying pencils cause spelling mistakes.
As for being addictive, its already proven to be mentally addictive not physically. There is another drug with that effect it’s called marijuana and a huge portion of the population use it everyday. Last time I checked most educated people don’t even consider marijuana a real drug anymore.
I have been using this drug since I was 20 and am now 36. I don’t have major depression, anxiety, memory loss, etc. I use it on a regular basis to this day. I will say I don’t use meth, heroin, coke, K or any other drugs due to the fact they cause the long-term effects that is being credited to ecstasy on here.
If you don’t want to do it don’t. If you disagree with its use then once again don’t do it. After 16 years of regular use if there were long-term effects I would have them all. Other then feeling really great about twice a week and a LITTLE disoriented for a half a day after. However not a single issue people seem to be trying to pawn off on ecstasy.
Warning people that it will make them depressed forever, or worse is ignorant. People need to take some time to figure out the root of the problem and deal with that. There seems to be a total lack of personal responsibly in this forum. “Whaa whaa, I took ecstasy loved it and now I’m sad all the time.” I would wager you were already sad and that you discovered what it was to be actually happy for a minute.
While I respect that certain individuals may experience increased mental issues from abuse of this or any drug. Get real, you are or were taking it and choose to. Most likely you started taking it to compensate for an already existing mental illness. Self medicating is just stupid and you are stupid for trying to treat a mental illness on your own with a psychoactive drug at any age. Would you start shooting heroin to compensate for insomnia? I think not.
Before people jump down my throat about peer pressure please note my main point here is lack of personal responsibility and education. Even teens need to learn that at some point. They seem to avoid suicide even when their peers do it. It’s really a fundamental failure in parenting.
If you are going to use drugs know what you are using and know your source. Triple stacks are only in a small part MDMA. I use only pure MDMA, not the same as the tabs people buy because they are cheap.
So now that I have pissed just about everyone off. Take moment look at that anger and look at yourself for once. Don’t blindly believe propaganda, think for your freaking self for once. Was it really ecstasy that caused your lover to leave, or was it the fact that you made it more important than that lover? Did it really cause you to be paranoid and depressed as one guy stated, or was it the marijuana he smokes everyday?
As a side note I have a great job, a house, a car, friends, a lover, hell I even have a great dog. I am in great health, do yoga every day and eat just fine. The only thing that makes me paranoid is the pure ignorance of people.
I will say make informed decisions not blind ones. Do the research, and take care of yourself. But most of all stop whining about the drugs ruining your life. You ruined your life, lost that car, job, lover, etc and only you can fix it. The sooner you take control of your life the sooner you will be free from the mental prison you have locked yourself in.
I am 22, I started taking pills when I was 18. Hit them very hard for about 2 years. I have still taken MDMA up until quite recently. I would take pills every weekend and even sometimes mid-week, if something was going on. Taking 5 or 6 strong pills a night was quite usual. I have taken 13 or 14 in a night before. I have taken hundreds and hundreds of pills. Not to mention the rest. I think the problem I faced was that the pills which I would take at the time were incredibly strong, like the sort where a quarter of one would be enough for a first-timer for a whole night.
We would take them everywhere, camping, in the pub, walking the streets, in farmers fields, out in a car, around somebodys house, house parties.
When you get into this lifestyle it is a magical time, with amazing memories, crazy feelings, mad adventures, musical rushes. When people tell you to stop it, you don’t listen as your so caught up in it and nothing else matters. You forget about the things in life that really matter, like your family, your education, your hobbies. All you care about is that lovable feeling, the intense rushes.
You live a whole lifetime in a year or two of your life. You go into another world for a period of your life, where reality is fantasy. Where even riding your bike at night during the week would be a crazy adventure, where your vison leaves trails, and your thoughts take over. Your taste of music changes. Your personality changes. You become a crazier, maybe more querky person.
Problem is you don’t think of the future, your are to involved and having too much of a good time to think of the future. Then SUDDENLY your body can’t handle it anymore, times change. It fizzles out.
You are left numb, you feel less emotions, you are more like a shell, your memory is shot, your concentration in destroyed, your reactions are slow, social skills second to none, anxiety in everyday situations, health issues, like head pressures and aches and pains. You have used up a liftimes worth of body-power, in a small period. The universe balances everything out…if you feel really good for a while, you feel really bad for a while. It’s how it works. If you could feel really good for a while then normal the rest of your life, this would be cheating the universe. Cheating nature.
Do I regret it?
Yes and no, I regret over-doing it. I wish I could go back and limit the amount I took, this way I could probably still be doing it occasionly now and be completely fine. I regret abusing my body to that extent. I have had some of the best times of my life when high. Times which some people could never imagine. Only problem is, due to my memory being destroyed, I have to really think to remember some of them! Defies the point really!
My biggest advise to anyone…If you are into Es right now as you are reading this, if you are in that magical period right now, even though you probably won’t listen to this, use them wisely. Don’t do them during the week, let your body recover for at least a week or two in between, don’t waste doing them, do them when there is a sensible moment to do them, at a party with all your friends, at a big rave you’ve been waiting for, not just because there’s nothing else to do. Don’t build up a tolerance to them. Make it an occasion.
It is your life, respect it. Increase the peace X
So i’m 14, i used e for like 3 months. I thought it was ‘cool’ and yeah.
The first time i took e i was very depressed and i wanted to be happy again, but not i’m guessing thay was a very bad idea.
I regret doing everything I did. I have depression and major anxiety. Im terrified of rolling or being high on anything, or being laced with something. I hope my anxiety is not perminate, does anyone have any idea if it is?
Because this is tearing me apart.
I took some really dirty bombs a long with other drugs and alchohal. I screwed up big time.
I started taking x when i was 16, about 1-3 a day. By the time i turn 17, 7-10 pills everyday snorting all of them. Sometimes i took 13 or 15. The pills all contained different additives. acid, mesculine, and meth.
When i turned 18 i stopped my habit and did a bunch on the weekends instead.. may of last year i cleaned my act up. and my brain doesnt work properly at all. i dont remember anything! its so embarrassing not being able to perform and understand easy task. ill never be able to regain my mind back. ill never have a great job. but i wish i still had the opportunity to do something great. i cant speak anymore my social skills are similar to mild autism. i used to be in a good metal band, but they kicked me out because of what drugs did to me. before i started x i was a great student made a 23 on my act. now i couldnt read the damn book i would zone out, freak out, and flash out and make a 5. everyday i wake up and hope for the best, im more glad to be clean and away from that nonsense. my serotonin levels are low, panic attacks are very normal. i still dont eat alot. ive had 7 cavitives, 2 root canals, and 4 chipped teeth. it takes me 5 or 10 mins to type a 5 word txt message. ive got major stress, anger problems, and relationship problems.
I totally agree with anonymous dated 11th feb, I started to take E on the millenium and I loved the feeling it gave me, but now 11 years later I regret ever being introduced to the drug. I was addicted to the feeling of happiness, I never took it while at a club it was for me to help me through everyday life (or so I thought) And yes I used it everyday pretty much, for about 3 years. I had to stop because I was gettin severe panic attacks while on them so much so I would just throw them up. A panic attack is bad enough, but to have one while buzzing, while your heart rate is already hightened is the worst feeling I have ever experienced, I swaer I thought I was going to die, heart racing, swaet pouring off me, shaking while throwing up in fact during those moments I proberbly did just want to die just so it would stop.
I finally made the decision to just quit them all together and I did straight away, thought it was easy……………till I went out.
I thoguht everyone was staring at me, hundreds of people in a shopping centre all staring at me as if they knew every bad thing I had done, that they knew I had a drug problem. I would litereally run untill I was free from being seen.
I would get off buses because I would just start panicking for no reason.My head would spin and I would feel like I was gong to faint when ever in a large group.
These things have got a little better now, but I came on here to see about long term side effects………….mine are that I still have problems being in large groups (before E I was the most confident person you would ever meet) Not so much panic attacks now, more of a nervous feeling, sometimes I even vomint. I have terrible back pain constantly and doctors cant see why so I just have to live with it.
I hardly ever sleep, can easily go 3 days without sleeping at all, sometimes even after taking sleeping pills, I can still be awake all night.
My eating pattern is odd……..sometimes I will go days without eating, others I will eat enough for a whole family in a day. Im 5ft 5 and weigh 7stone 6lb I cant actually put weight on no matter how hard I try and that gets quite upsetting because I look so ill all the time.
The worst part of my after effects is…(And I know this is down to the E) I have no emotions or feelings, I dont get upset or happy or sad I find it hard to understand if I can feel love, real love. Im pretty much a hollow person, nothing inside. I carry on with my life because I have to but its no life and I have XTC to thank for that, those few years where I could feel really happy has cost me a future of happiness.
I tried ecstasy for the first time this past weekend. I took only 1/2 pill. I’m not sure how many milligrams it was. I can’t begin to imagine ingesting anymore than that at a time or even over the period of a day. There was absolutely no way I could have been seen in public. If I had somehow gotten out in public I have no doubt I would have been arrested. I was completely out of control, laughing uncontrollably, very sexual, I had a short period of time where I was hallucinating and I was extremely euphoric feeling. I came away from the experience definitely wanting to try it again even tho I knew better, but the above posts have opened my eyes.
I have been very interested in the long term side effects of E now ever since i stopped taking them 6 years ago and have experienced some really strange things.
I am 25 now, I, like many people began drinking and smoking weed and eventually lead me down the line to E when I was 18-19. I spent a year of my life high on E, I have taken more pills then I can remember. I lost so must weight that I looked like a skeleton and didn’t even recognize myself. I was mostly addicted to the feeling of happiness and contentment that it would give me, even if it was fleeting and made me feel like shit for the next few days.
When I finally decided to stop, I had some unexpected side effects happen to me. I am being 100% honest, I haven’t been to a doctor, I haven’t had anyone confirm these as straight from E but deep down inside, I know they are.
First thing that happened is i got a studder for a few months. I was really embarrassed because i had never had a studder or any speech problem my whole life. this lasted about 6 months. I also had the most vivid disturbing nightmares, this has never stopped to this day. It has gotten less frequent but had never stopped.
Aside from the typical screwed memory, I felt like E made me anti-social. Very anti social. but the biggest side effect was an incredible temper that I acquired that I had never had.
Any time I drink hard alcohol now, I literally lose my mind. I get mad at people i love (friends and family or my boyfriend) for no reason and say the most hurtful things and do crazy things. I cry and scream and the next morning I don’t remember any of it. I didn’t believe that I was doing this at first, but It happened so many times that I just had to stop drinking hard liquor all together.
Besides that I feel like E has left me very pessimistic and essentially used up all my dopamine reserved in my brain. I feel very indifferent a lot of the time and I wonder if its because of the E i took was i was a teenager.
I wish anyone who is reading this who is interested in trying E not to. E is a hard drug to stop using and it will cost you so much more over a lifetime then the few fleeting hours of high it gives you.
I started using at 16 just around the time i was about to turn 17 (I’m 18 now) and during that period of time i want to say i’ve taken around 30 pills. My first time was just completely amazing, i sat in a living room with 2 friends talking until sunrise. The next few times were equally as fun but i started to get too used to the feeling, as bad as that sounds. So me and my friends started to drink massive amounts of liquor and i can’t even describe how fun it was.
The fun came to a halt when it was 2 days before school started and we popped 3 1/2 pills and drank until 9 in the morning the next day. i slept for about 7 hours then we decided to smoke weed to help us fall asleep; since it was the first day of the semester the next day. We smoked and i stayed up literally the entire night, went to school completely drained and came home with a monologue i had to memorize for my theatre class. It was to be memorized by the next day and i had no idea if i could do it(memorizing before E was not hard at all for me). My LIFE is acting, it’s my passion and what i plan to persue. As soon as i got home i passed out until 2 in the morning, memorized for 3 hours then went to bed.
The next day i got up on stage and literally froze for about 15 seconds in the middle of it. I have NEVER in the 8 years i have acted forgotten a line and not been able to improvise through it onstage. At that time i realized i needed to quit. So i did for 6 months. But miss the feeling so i started up again. Since then i’ve taken about 8 pills and my last 2 were 4 weeks ago. I am aware that i’m a bit slower than i used to be. I don’t understand simple things and often say what’s on my mind before realizing the sentence was completely idiotic. I noticed my personality has changed a bit i’m not as hyper or cracking jokes all the time like i used to. I want to say i’ve matured a lot and am a much happier, more positive person than i was before my huge party stage.
I read almost everyone’s comments and am so touched by your storys. I can truly say i wont touch E again and can now look at that stage and say “it was fun while it lasted”. So thank you so much to everyone who has opened my eyes because if i wouldn’t have come across this site, i would have kept going.
seriously? all in all it is a bad drug it is def as bad as these ppl make it look like im only 16 and have done well over 70 rolls in the past 3 months ive been ravin yea i mean i feel different then i did but i feel its a good different im way more friendly less violent…its def. somethin everyone should try at least once but then again i thought i was only gunna try it once and im not addicted i jus choose to keep goin
Thankyou all for sharing your past experiences and stories as I know it must have been very difficult to open up. I am 19 now, and I tried ecstasy for the first time when I was 15. I smoked weed everyday and drank occasionally. Throughout highschool, I tried just about every single drug next to meth and I never injected anything. I was always extremely and unusually social and made friends everywhere I went. The first time I tried ecstasy, I had a “yellow duck” which my good friend had vouched for and so I took it and chilled with my neighbors as well as going on a “Blunt ride” and jamming some disco biscuits. I loved it, it was the best feeling I ever had but on the comedown I felt depressed and only wanted to go home and sleep. As a result of this, I stayed away from E but continued to use other drugs throughout highschool. Recently, my buddy from highschool who is now at college brought home some incredible pure MDMA crystal powder. I did it 4 times in the past 6 days, mostly because I LOVED having sex on it haha, and after reading all of these posts, I’m wondering if it is possible that I self induced any permanent brain damage. I’m talking cognitive ability and memory loss, I don’t give a fuck about anxiety or depression as long as I can still critically think. I haven’t noticed any effects so far but its only been two days and I am wondering about the long term damage that may be in my near future. I am a biology major on a pre-pharmacy track at Temple University and I consider myself to be rather intelligent, or at least above average, considering I just Aced calculus III with doing almost no work or studying for it and I am only a spring semester freshmen. I just finished my chemistry requirements and am now moving on to biology and organic chemistry with a little bit of physics here and there. I am posting this to PLEASE ask someone with experience if I have done any permanent brain damage from the one time I took an ecstasy pill when I was 15 and also from the binge of taking about .1-.2gs of pure MDMA crystalline powder for about 4 days straight with one day break. Any information / advice would be soo greatly appreciated. Thankyou for your time and consideration.
I’m 33 and haven’t touched E since I was 26. I used E a lot between 22 - 24 years old … all in all I counted that I’ve rolled somewhere around 300 doses. Prior to that , add weed , acid, shrooms , alchohol , cigarettes, speed, cocaine , I guess that’s about it. After that , lots of prozac , xanex , and other anti depressants. xanex for anxiety. I got hooked on xanex and tried to kill myself , ended up in the hospital and rehab , went through a divorce etc . Over time , lost all my friends , lost my joy , rarely ever smile , still have no friends , still think about suicide all the time , and have a complete lack of interest in just about everything in life. I find that good nutrition , good amounts of sleep when possible , and really intense exersize do help some, but I have accepted the fact that this is who I am now and this is my life now and now it’s all about learning how to live a quality life as much as possible because guess what - THERE IS NO GOING BACK !!! IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT DOING ECSTASY EVEN JUST ONCE - please don’t do it . You will wake up one day and wish you never did and it will be too late. But hey , life goes on right … gotta stay positive.
x is pretty baddass i cant lie.! i lovee Lovee Goingg To the raves <3 Shufflingg all night and being happy and getting those amazingg light shows (:.! but i think its better to go drunk.! yuu feel some what the sameee. i havent done it in two months.! and my bodyy is wantingg it.! ive onlyy done it 4 times and each time i took one.! and now im doing bad in school.! i havent slept in a WEEK.! i dont want to take it anymore.! i wont let this pill win me over.!
hmm ecstasy. my story… dad died when i was 16. started smoking cig. at 17 alcohol& weed at 18 cold meds, percs then followed xanaxs all day everyday.then right before 19 started doing ecstasy. Ecstasy had always interested me when i was 13-15 i was completely anti-drug in health class learning about drugs ecstasy interested me. i would say i was hooked for a little while i held a job at all times though. working 2 actually. hell i had the energy.got fired from one of them though, guess its not a good idea to steal from the register but it was cool i made good money at the other one. never was into coke thats what killed my dad. i was rolling at least 5x a week sometimes for days at a time. snorting x on the table at work having the music up loud. i was in a office by myself so hey why not. got to the point where my drug dealer told me he could no longer sell to me at the rate i wanted the pills. he said that it made him feel bad. thats when its bad when your drug dealer tells you to lay off. but i had a few other guys so it was okay.it got to the point that all ecstasy did was make my eyes get big. i remember what made me really quit was looking in the mirror when i was “high” and i didnt look anything like the person i used to. i had always been pretty even considered most attractive in high school. and i looked rough that one night in the mirror. its taken me almost 3 years to start looking like a reg person who hasnt done drugs. by the way when i quit ecstasy i quit everything. although i do still smoke cig.. i still have pretty bad dark circles under my eyes even with more than 8 hrs sleep and all the concealer you can use. Do i suggest someone taking it -no if it was pure maybe but you dont know what your getting with that stuff. do i regret taking it- nope it made me who i am. i am not so judgemental as people who havent went through things. side effects for me, i do not have to take meds for anything allthough i am still dealing with the depression of my father passing. i couldnt deal with it at the time of his death but now i think im at a stage where i can deal.sometimes i still get extremely anxious and there isnt much of a reason for it but honestly i was on it bad i did it for about 2 years constant, and have done it once since i quit everything but its just not what interests me anymore i had my fun. i went out and bought 2 pills cause as much as i did 2 might just be enough to get me started no matter how damn good they are. i honestly think i am immune to ecstasy.and i have not touched those pills and have had them for 6months sitting in my drawer. one side effect ive noticed,,, I am very to my self now, as i used to be friends with everyone and talk to everyone but now if i dont know you i dont have anything to say to you i dont care to talk to people other than my mom my fiance or other close family members so thats really the only thing that has changed me since the drugs. I Dont regret doing it but i do not recommend anyone else doing them.
It all started when I moved into a new city. The only way I could see to make friends at the time was, to completly imerse myself in the drug culture. Boy what a huge mistake, if only my sad naive, teenage brain could comprehend end the damage that was going to ensue. It wasent just Ecstasy that I experimented with, though it was my drug of choice for about 2 years. I also tried cocaine, dxm, shrooms, weed and alcohol. During that time the drugs (unknowingly to me) were drastictaly altering my perception of the world. I have been clean for 3 years from drugs and E( though I still smoke weed the odd time) but I ended up with bipolar disorder at the end of it all. It runs in my family and what not, so that may not be the soul cause, but I think it didnt help the situation. I live in a constant state of fear, mind is always fuzzy and I have a short attention span. To be honest I feel like I failed at life. I’ve tried going back to school, but the thought of so many people in one confined area scares me shitless. Is this all from the E? Probably not, my best friend is going for his Phd and has done way more drugs than me, but hey, most people arent so lucky, judging by the posts Ive read. If your gonna do drugs, just smoke pot and drink. Your brain will thank you.
Im 40 now and experimented with ecstasy in my 20s. One night I took one which really frazzled my brain and I had an utterly terrifying experience on it. I wanted it to stop because it was way too strong - I had to be walked around the street and looked after by someone all night. After that I suffered from panic attacks and even now I am on antidepressants basically none stop. When i had my daughter I was too afraid to even have pethadine in case I had the same out of control feelings. think about the long term effects - I dont know if I have brain damage but I do know that I really wish I hadn’t taken that ecstasy - I even find it difficult to even work full time now. Dont risk it - you just dont know how it will effect you.
mdma creates ways for young people to conversate with others better and helps increase pleasure, but at the same time does not have a very good long term health effect, on the brain, and emotionally. this is why many take it, so they would have an increase in self-esteem, and creates ways for more people to associate with others, it may be good, but effects are damaging.
the first time i did ecstasy i was 16 and i got absolutely hooked. every weekend all i did was listen to music and pop pills. then i decided i didnt want to deal with shady dealers so i thought it would be smart to start selling. i got my first 100 and decided to test them with some friends and that was when i was introduced to railing pills.i popped 3 and railed 4 in about 8 hours but after that the game changed for me and instead of just taking 3 pills orally when i rolled i would do 5-7 and only snort them. i did this for a couple months until i overdosed and had to go to the hospital but even after that i didnt quit. and after a month of recuperating i decided to take some more and i did another 7 up the nose were i spent 13 hours tweaking in my house. i felt like my brain was melting in some sections of it and i was constantly sweating then i went to bed and slept for like 10 hours but im kinda surprised i woke up after doing that. during that night i had a moment when i saw my self and reallized what i really looked like on this drug and was fucking disgusted. ive done coke shrooms e ketamine speed oxy and i had just turned 17. i also suffer from heavy depression and used to think about suicide 24/7 due to sexuall abuse as a kid and using drugs to mask that was the absolute worst decision of my life. i see life for what it really is now and i cant talking to people the same anymore .while dealing i constantly had pills on me and so i would snort 1 or 2 a day. ecstasy has destroyed my life. a lot of people tell me that weed is a gateway drug but in my own expirience ecstasy opened the door to every drug i did.
I’m 16 turning 17 in a month. I’ve used e close to 25 times usually 1-1 1/2 pills each time. I regret ever trying it. It’s extremely assisting and ever since I tried it I find it is ALL I think about it. I’ve heard that it sucks your spinal fluid out and my back does always hurt so I’m not sure if that’s linked. Also everytime I do it I know for a fact I get stupider. I still want to do it though. It’s hard to have fun without it seriously but I don’t want to get addicted. I smoke pot pretty much every day an usually drink on the weekends .. Ive tried other pills and inhalants but e is definitely favorite but I’m terrified of becoming an e-tard. It’s literally all I think about. When youre on it, it is the best feeling in the world but I know for a fact it made me depressed more than before I even tried it. All my friends are the same way as me but I feel as if there’s no hope. I’m scared.
I was a regular user of ecstacy from about 1990 to 95. Some of those nights were the happiest, freeing and revelatory experiences of my life. Now I am happily married with two children and life is good. However, I do get regular feelings of depression, anxiety, paranoia. Whether this is just me, affect of those drugs I don’t know. I’ve done alot of psychotherapy - much of it while I was using. Therapy doesnt take those feelings away, but it does develop a way of coping with it. Being aware that your feeling in a pit rather than simply being in it. It allows you to nurse yourself when feeling low, think extra hard before you act, maybe to tell yourself “it’ll pass”
I think ecstacy quite literally takes us to heaven -= maybe it should only be used once! It’s a bit of a challenge for some of us, to then cope with anything less than bliss. When I am feeling low, I emerse myself in day to day routine and try and take pleasure and satisfaction in ordinary things - even if its just peeling potatoes!
I’m just thinking that E is a bit of a symbol of an aspect of 21st century life, wanting it now, multi media, etc etc - you know what I mean. Its all abit like wanting a buzz all the time.
Indian mystics fast, meditate, pray etc for years to get the highs we experienced after paying the money and dropping the tab. To those who think they’ve fucked themselves up - you’ve had the bliss, now do the work!
There are other things possible between bliss and being in the pit. To Rene, “Anonymous” and others - my heart goes out to you, but all the newest research suggests that you havent damaged yourselves physiologically, rather that those experiences have left you disatisfied with ordinary feelings and frightened or defensive of feeling sadness.
There is no magic cure - its life, when those feelings come, feel them and let them go, they are just feelings and they’l pass. Do the things you have to do carefully and methodically. Exercise makes you feel better. Don’t hang your depression on “if only’s” - believe me, it’l be there from time to time whatever your circumstances. I know sounds really boring, but there are two other options 1) to take the depression literally and end up killing yourself or 2) keep on taking ecstasy all the time.
Its the hardest thing to accept - ordinary life - as good as it gets!
I am 23 have taken E plenty of times. For all the people who say all these negatives things about it lets get real here. everything can cause anxiety not just taking E. If you have a job interview you can have anxiety, a test, a big date anything. I have never had an anxiety attack out of the blue from it. Nor have i ever been depressed. Im generally a happy person and for you who say you were “depressed” afterwards and didn’t feel the same. No offense but thats human nature. Your going to have bad days and good days (im talking about while not on drugs) So its normal to feel “depressed” every once in awhile. Even if you are on E. Im almost 99 percent of the time in a great mood everyone enjoys being around me ( and im talking about when im not on E) they see me as the guy who is always in a good mood and they don’t know why. Its just my personality i guess. I have a great job a wife, a daughter and Taking E has not affected my marriage, my parenting skills, my relationship with my daughter or anything. Im still the same man i was when i first took E. Could i stop taking E anytime i wanted yes, because E isn’t an addictive drug but your mind is the one who makes it addicted to the drug. You want to feel that euphoria and feel as good as when your on E. Basically what im trying to get at is. If you want to take E. By all means do it, dont’ be scared (its actually a great roll) and will make you feel amazing, be cautious if you do have an addictive personality because your mind will set you up for failure there. Its all how you control your life afterwards and what you make of it. Good luck and happy rolling
I was given an ecstasy pill when I was in 9th grade. Ever since then, I still take it and wish I never started. I’ve taken close to 70 pills and I’m 18 years old. Its literally what is on my mind every day, and the longest I’ve gone without using is 7 months. My memory is ruined, and there’s nothing I can fully concentrate on. Ecstasy is a disgusting drug and I hate the person who gave it to me. I was young and didn’t know what to think. I’m writing my research paper on X for a psychology class as we speak, and I came across this we on website. For all who’ve quit and stayed off it, I admire you. I really do. I know I can quit anytime I want, but I’ve come to the point of not caring anymore. I wish ecstasy was never created, its changed my life in so may ways
Im not stating my name for personal reasons. Im a junior in highschol and im 18 years old. Prior too junior year i only smoked pot. But i took my first pill of ecstasy when i was 17 years old. That night changed my life, from that night on I took at least 2 pills everysingle week for the next 6 months. I realized i was destroying my life, and i stopped it all together. But I have severe anixiety, and my mind is constantly wandering about why i feel this way. My whole perspective on life has changed and i cant remember how it used too be. Sometimes i daydream and then come back too reality and panic of where i am and how i got there. I dont know what too doo, i feel like i will never be normal again. But if anyone reading this is condisering doing ecstasy dont do it. It will ruin your life, dont get me wrong its amazing while your on it, but the longterm is not worth it. trust me dont do it. But this drug has completley changed my life, my perspective, and my views not in a positive way
Well, Im 16 yrs old. i tried my first pill at a halloween party about two years ago. i dnomt know wat kind it was. but i took half and i the time i thought it was ok. i started again four days ago. i took one and a half and i was good for the night. fell asleep pretty easily, and the next morning i woke up feeling fine. the problem is that my apettite went away. yesterday, i ended up taking two and a half. And today i just took one. the feeling was amazing of course aside from being super cold the third time i did it.. im still not hungry… and ive noticed that i keep spacing out alot. my ex boyfriend suggested me to stop so i decided to google the long term effects and i ran into this page. reading the stories of many people have opened my eyes. and im glad that i decide to stop while i still could. im still thinking about doing it again but not as much and not as often. i could really control wat i take. ive tried drinking but the hangover the next day made me not wanna do that again. i smoked weed for a while but i totally got over it. so i think im pretty good with controling what i do. and to the people who are still recovering… GOOD LUCK! you guys are not alone and thank you for telling the world your stories and made me wanna stop doing E.
Drugs cam be awful, they usually are the worst when people who have a predisposition to addiction based on your genetics and family history. Point is drugs dont fuck people up, people who cannot control their own actions fuck up… not trying to rag on anybody but considering ive spent a few months addicted to just about whatever u can come up with (minus shooting up)but the only thing consistent in those situations was myself and my lack of control.. Drugs are truly amazing substances when not abused… work on ur substance abuse or do whatevers best.. dont wish they disapered
Hi everyone I’m 19 years old and popped for a year straight, from 17-18, had to have spinal surgery from popping too many ecstasy pills, about 200; I am fine now, thank God. I regret it because even though my memory is fine do to the fact I was all ready kind of smart in the first place, but it’s been a 1 year since I popped and now out of nowhere I suffer from some anxiety. My main concern like a lot of people said is the deppresion and all of the constant racing thoughts, it’s hard to concentate, plus I’m always sad.
This site is very good, because ecstasy does have long-term effects and no doctor or study can say/show them better then someone who is experiencing the effects. (SO THE NEW USERS-TAKES NOTES!) From reading some of the above posts, I have to say that everyone has a different reaction to these effects and they all have to do something with the brain. (One can’t sleep well, another has panic attacks, some become sad and so on..) Ectasy is not very dangerous for acouple of times just to try it, but if used constantly it will mess with your brain in very strange ways. I have taken around 100-150 ecstasy pills for about 5 years (17-22ages) and I can see the changes in my thinking and acting.. Im just not who i used to be, not as social and funny but rather always thinking stuff that i dont even know why i think about it. I stopped doing it for 1-2 years now, only have taken ecstasy acouple of times here and there and from my experience these so called brain damages do last a long time; it gets better, but never the same. The brain functioning will be changed in its own way for years (if not forever..) I dont regret it, because it is what it is, but i wanted to say as many of the others said, DONT DO IT, because its NOT WORTH IT. (1-2 times to feel what is like!
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Hello iam jen, I have been using ecstacy since I was 17 my ex boyfriend got me into it I was always drug and alcohol free tilli was 17 but I experimented then really liked it I have only smoked weed and e idk if I want to try any other drugs but I have really bad anxiety my back always hurts and sometimes I feel sick to my stomach but there is great advice and iam quitting cuz the long term effects are catching up to me
I am 17 and started smoking weed wen I was 11. My brother was 4 years older than me and I did everything he did cuz really he was the only one I could do anything with(my parents were quite strict about there little girl doing anything) so he and his friends came over every day after school and they became my friends. They are all very bad influences but they r my friends so there’s not much I can do…I smoke weed every day and can’t seem to quit. The longest I ever made it wen I tried to quit was 6 days. One day my cousin and one of my friends were doin e and I decided to try it and promised myself it would be a one time thing only. A few weeks later I was buying some and promising myself that this would be the last time for real. So I did it with a friend from school and a month later she was trying to convince me to do it again with her. It was the hardest thing In the world for me to say no and at first I didn’t but we didn’t hav the money right away so I had time to think about it and I told her not to offer again cuz I didnt trust my own will power. I huffed freon wen I was about 8 or 9 cuz my brother found a way to get it out of the air conditioners and he said it would be fun. He was 12 or 13 and we didn’t kno at the time that it can kill u. I hav memory problems but idk if its from the weed x or freon, or maybe none of it and I just hav bad memory. X wasn’t as good as I thought it would be and someone told me it was cuz I took the wrong kind, I’m glad I never took it again but if it was rite in front of me I really dont think I could say no again
alright guys first offf ive tookin about a garbage bin filled full of throwbacks prob like over five thousand i sold them from 13 to 18 went to a teen dance nitemet the wrong crownd nd thats how it began like in the end i was taking 25 a nite everynite for the last two years it sounds unhuman nd as a seller i ve seen only oneother person able to eat as many nd that was my wing man i mean i felt deppresd slow outa shape hi wldhave skitzo freakouts on my family forno reason but we healnd i learned that it can take six months to a year in a half but everyone will eventulaalyturn back to them selves except for deppssion it seems to never go away and you feellike you always have to be with sum one as an entertainment or ur just not happy but i stoped for two years went back to doing it again which dodnt let no body lie to you ur tolrence stays the same for ever i hadto eat ten pills at once to peak but this time i hulucinated cuz they were acid dipped nd after that just stoped i still sell them cuz im a dropoutnd thatshow i live buttt ppeople i advise you to stay away cuz its sum crzy shit ur gunna get in to
I am a twenty one year old female, x user of exctasy, I’ve seen a lot of thinhs and had a blast with e. I loved e, I was a dancer and got caught up in pills which lead me to e. I have a brain tumor jus found out in the beginning of 2011. I suffer from horrible anxiety that puts me in the psych ward constantly. I have heart papultations, sleep apena, holes in my brain, and I don’t eat only once every three or four days because my nervous system is shot. I started using just one pill eating it about three times a week. Then by two weeks later started using it every other day crushed and sniffing two at a sitting. Shortly after I was sniffing three at a sitting along with other pills like oxys , suboxyin, roxis, vik tens, and xanax.. I was also drinking frequently.. my god if I could take that part of my life back now I would. I am not the same and I’m never healthy. The psychological effects alone are literally killing me, maken my heart race, head spins, horrible anxiety.. and that’s just a small portation of it all. I wish I could take it away, my pain, my health, and I’m Prolly never gonna b the same. I got to the hospital Nd doctors so much that I have 100,000$ in debt from the alone. I wish I knew before I did it and abused it cause , Idk what else to do b regret it and try to fight for my life, for me, for my son , my husband, for my future, hopefully ill b alive to have one..
Tried X for the first time… and only time about 4 yrs ago. It was a horrible experience for me and I’ll never do it again. But it seems like ever since, I’ve experienced memory loss, chronic fatigue and a certain level of depression and anxiety. The memory loss, fatigue and anxiety still persist. Is this normal? Is this somthing that maybe I should see a doctor for?
I started using ecstasy back in 2001 up until that point I had never had any no desire for it but a situation arose one night and curiosity got the better of me. I only did half a pill but honestly is was amazing, I got a friend on it (some friend I am) he quite after 30 pills. Between 2001 and 2006 I must have done 60 pills.
I double dropped once back in 2002…one hour later I was out of the club on the street spaced out, mumbling to myself for a couple hours but I remember a few people coming up to me checking if I was ok. Another time I went to a family barbecue high on it.
The only reason I stopped was because of a personal incident whilst on it that was a blessing in disguise in hindsight.
Today though, i’m suffering from stress/anxiety and its many many symptoms, depersonalization, memory problems, speech, concentration and worry the list goes on. Was it partially caused by xtc? maybe, maybe not. As my problems seem to have started in 2009. But i’m working on myself to get ME back using exercise, mediation, hypnosis, healthy eating, relaxation and constant learning be it drawing, maths, learning a new language, memory training. I refuse to give up.
If I could go back in time and do it all over again, I would have never started. But I did so I live with the choices I made, both good and bad.
Take care all
I’ve probably rolled 20 times. Over the span of the year that I did thiz I had probably taken around 50 0r 60 ecstasy pills. I also used pain killers occasionally (Xanax, Zoloft, and Vicodin) as well as self perscribing Aderall smoking weed and drinking. I am 18 years old and started using pills at 16, weed and drinking at 15. I was addicted to thiz until the last time I used on February 6. It has been six months since my last roll and I have not had an urge to use since then. For anyone who is considering this drug as a good idea, believe me it is not. The last time I used, I remember waking up the morning after and feeling numb. I had no emotional capacity at all. I was so worried that I was never going to be the same. It did however end, and I felt a lot better the next day. I am still worried that later on down the road I may have health issues do to using ecstasy. The fact of the matter is that even if your friends say its fun, and you should try it, don’t, that’s how I got started. Once you take that first pill, you realize that there is nothing quite like it. It is honestly the best feeling imaginable. Having said that, I wasted a year of my life and ruined several relationships over this drug, so I urge you not to make the same mistake I did. SInce then I have quit all drugs, but still do drink. I hope that I can help someone refrain from using thiz, or any pills for that matter, because it can have terrible affects on you physically, as well as mentally and spiritually.
Good luck…
Hi,
I have read all these comments on the use of ectasy. what I would say is like any drug or any pleasures like eating or drinking or anything in fact, it has to be done moderately.
Also I would say that the after effects of ecstasy like depression, panick attacks or lack of concentration or memory can be caused by something else and not especially the ecstasy that has been taken. I personnaly took ecstasy in my twenties between 25 and 27years old once or twice a month and only 2 to three maximum and I dont consider having side effects from that. However I do think my memory and concentration is not that good because I dont use often. My job is to sell from home in front of my computer and with my phone and because I can swap from one product that I sell to the other and I am free to do so I tend to be always switch from one thing to the other and feel like I can t concentrate on one thing. I also often feel depressed because of my job!! so these things can come from other factors than the drugs. I have taken ecstasy in the past (1997-2000) and do not believe to suffer from long term effects from it. Life can make you depressed, with panic attacks etc… I think the best is if you decide to take drugs, CONTROL YOUSELF AND DO IT VERY MODERATELY AND WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG so that your body can recover everytime you do it and also when you are young, your body is able to recover better. ENJOY!
Hearing all these stories, no doubt drugs can be bad for you but I personally have found it to be some of the greatest learning experiences in my life and I have no regret doing them. I feel they have opened my eyes and world and has made me a better, more caring and stronger person. I was a goodie two-shoes throughout high school and never smoked a joint, or drank a beer (except a white russian prom night senior year). I looked down on people who did because I was taught to think these things were taboo and “bad”. When I got to college, I smoked my first joint and was hooked instantly. That led to a number of other things (E, shrooms, lsd, cocaine, opium, meth). I was a minority going to a very white university in New England and did not fit in well so I used drugs to get through the day. Not so good, but it helped me to realize who I was and my home so I moved back to Cali. I continued to use drugs, some nights I would be on 5 pills and lsd and coke at the same time, I ate shrooms or tripped on acid at least 3-4 times a month, for a short period (like 5-6 months) popped heavily nearly every other day (I mean, it took 5 pills to get me high), with coke and meth and all sorts of sh*t and as bad as it sounds, I feel that those were the experiences that helped me to appreciate my friends and family, not take things for granted, open my mind and become a more accepting person, and believe it or not motivated me in school. I know this might sound a little self-centered but I feel these experiences has made me a much stronger, more compassionate person and gave me a lot more life experiences than my peers. I’ve been through my share of struggles, I grew up poor on wel-fare, but I’ve managed to pay my way through college, graduate with a double major in biology and art and held a job throughout all of this. So my point here is, drugs can be eye-opening and a definately good thing. Some people just don’t need it, and that’s great, but for me, I know it was a positive experience and has made me a better person. Just be smart about it. Except for coke and meth-now those two drugs I will probably never do again, well, maybe 1 more time. lol.
E has messed my life up too,now i can not wait untill i die & thats the truth.
I have all the bad problems that everyone elase has plus i got a really loud ringing noise in my head that i have got to put up with everyday of my life.
I just wish i could turn back the hands of time & not take any drugs at all,i was once a very happy person that loved life so much,now i hate myself and cant wait untill my life is over because i am done.all thanks to E ,the only way i can explain it is it’s like i used up every bit of happyness i ever had in my brain in just a few time E ing out my head,so now i got to live the rest of my life never being happy again ? i hate it so much i feel like crying,every day of my life is hell because of drugs.
The feelings i got while rolling out of my mind was out of this world good,i went to mars and never came back.
to anyone getting into taking E please dont do it,you should be scared to death about taking one belive me,because you may end up like me ? ,if you end up like me you will want to kill yourself thats for sure.
now my goal in life is to try and stop my kids from taking drugs and ending up like me.
when you are say 14-25 years old you do not think about what you will be like in 10-15 years time from now after taking the drugs
E = I am now living in hell & want to die
please stop & think before taking an E,remember what i have told you,it will send you crazy.
Dreamland forever is no fun.
Others used MDMA to be in an impassive state, I took it to experience normality. I used it every day of the week taking at least 5 pills a day to a maximum of 15 a day (all while working three jobs). I used it when I was 17-22 yrs old. I’m 31 and I experience extreme social anxiety, insomnia, severe depression, mood changes, and many other psycological problems. I take anti-depressants, anxiety medication, sleeping pills, medication for ADD and it only helps somewhat (all under the supervision of a psychologist). I will never be the outgoing, happy, motivated individual I was, but I have no regrets on using the drug. I here it went before cogress in 2010, and doctor’s hope for it to be approved as a medication to treat PTSD, and anxiety in cancer patients within the next ten years.
Oh my God! Reading these posts breaks my heart! I am the mother of a former ecstasy user. My son, who will be 20 in January, has just admitted to me that he used this horrible drug A LOT during his high school years. He is now experiencing memory loss, he said he feels stupid, he’s on medication for anxiety and depression, he can’t sleep at night. I am just sick over this. I had no idea he was using it. It wasn’t until a year ago that he admitted to his father and me that he was doing anything more than pot and alcohol. He hasn’t used e in probably nearly 2 years now, but the side effects are catching up with him. I have no idea what to do or how to help him!
Please, please stay away from drugs, no matter what kind. My son comes from a large, close-knit family. We are your average, every day American family, struggling to get by but never going without the basic needs and a few extras, too. What I’m saying is that there was no reason for my son, or any of my children, to seek escape through drug use. But this son did. He regrets it now, with all of his being. Just an hour ago, he cried and told me he feels like his life is ruined. He can’t focus at school (he’s in college now), can’t sleep, can’t slow his mind down, and feels hopeless. I pray to God that he is wrong and his best years are all still ahead of him. I feel like I’ve failed him somehow.
I came across this site because I was looking for long term effects of MDMA. The real stories here that I have heard really captured me, its one thing to hear about how this drug is bad from a text book point of view and another to hear about it from real life people. I just recently started rolling in June and usually do it every 3 or 4 months. I know its bad because the day after no matter how many vitamins I take the day before or after I still feel terrible. But I just look back on the night before and think it was worth it, right? I try to space it out as much as possible but I know I could end up doing it more, I should know better to because I’m studying to be a doctor. I’m nervous for my best friend who has for the past month been rolling a few times a month along with taking unknown pills etc. It has been been getting out of control to the point where he wont listen to me. I’m really worried that hes going to take it too far one of these days. I want him to see this site maybe it might help him step back and realize what hes doing to himself, to me.
I was surfing the web and stumbled on this cite. I was very interested reading some of these posts. I think that it is important for many of you who are trying to link mental disorders and “brain damage” to MDMA, to read up on the actual research done on the subject. The only researcher that has ever been able to link brain damage to MDMA was paid by the US government, and he fabricated the association, that is now established in the mind of the public.
After the scientific community could not reproduce his results he admitted that his test monkeys were actually injected w/ methamphetamine; and had to publicly apologize for his fraudulant research. That said, MDMA use does not cause brain damage! There is no research supporting physical addiction to MDMA either. No existing research has been able to establish this link, but the other drugs added to press pills; like meth, have been shown to cause brain disfunction, and exacerbate existing mental disorders (anxiety, depression, bi polar disorder, schizophrenia etc.). Meth is a common additive to XTC.
So my advice is to be very careful, if your going to take press pills buy a testing kit, and find out exactly what’s in the pills before you take them. The kits are inexpensive and readily available over the web. Also it is much safer to take “Molly” or pure MDMA w/no additives. People tend to experience less side effects w/ molly. I have only consumed xtc three times in my life, and the difference between “mystery pills” and molly is HUGE. Come down is not as bad, and after one day I felt totally normal again. But with press pills I felt depressed for 2 weeks. It’s all about the other drugs added to “enhance” the experience, or make the drugs cheaper to produce, that you have to watch out for.
All that aside, the most important thing to monitor if you are going to experiment with drugs is intake in extreme moderation. If you are prone to addiction of any kind don’t be stupid and take drugs. Period. If you do decide to take drugs, be safe, and don’t partake more than once every few months. Avoid all drugs that are physically addictive (meth, cocaine, opiates, ect.) Xtc is not one of these.