Long Term Effects of Ecstasy
Ecstasy (also known as MDMA) was initially designed as an appetite suppressant. However, it became popular as a way to get high. It was widely used as a teenage and college drug , popular at dance clubs and raves. Some used it at dance marathons (raves) to increase their stamina. It is used to relax, remove inhibitions, as a speed substitute and to increase pleasure.
Some users of the drug ecstasy like to speak of how it opens up their heart, makes them able to feel close to people and be in the moment. Because it wears off after some hours, people think there are no long term effects of ecstasy. First of all, some short-term effects of mdma can include Some side effects include poor coordination, feelings of nausea, excessive sweating, dryiness of the throat and dehydration. Because people can feel down for a few days after coming down, it creates a cycle where you want the high again and then take the ecstasy once again.
Street ecstasy also can be a mix of a number of different items including baking soda, amphetamines and ephedrine. You don’t know what you are getting and can’t tell by just looking at a pill.
Some people mix a few drugs at once and this can be a serious problem. If you mix together ecstasy and acid (lsd) this can result in a very negative experience filled with terror. Taking an amphetamine and ecstasy at the same time can lead to a very rapid heart beat.
One long term effect of ecstasy that concerns some researchers is potential brain damage. Some say that neurons that produce serotonin become damaged and it doesn’t take much ecstasy for this to occur. Another concern is that there will be increased depression, anxiety and psychiatric disorders with long term use of ecstasy.
It is a popular teen drug due to the attraction to going to clubs and raves and wishing for ways to keep up and have stamina. Aside from being illegal, the short-term and long-term effects of ecstasy can be quite damaging. Keep in mind that yoga, tai-chi and other natural highs can be practiced as a way to feel both relaxation and control. These won’t increase your heart rate, create nausea or lead to brain damage. Teen life and college life has a lot of pressures for fitting in, performing and showing that one can chill. Education is important to see that this isn’t an innocent drug.
The drug ecstasy may enhance clubbing and raves but you can feel like crap for days afterwards and then just spend time planning the next time you’ll take it. It is not a good way to keep living.
Mdma is no joke. People get into combining mdma and other stuff on weekend nights and I’ve seen people really messed up by using these drugs to get high and wasted.
Another long term effect of ecstasy is that you tend to associate parties with ecstasy so it then becomes hard to enjoy yourself without any mdma. But the problem is that people don’t know how to really get into a good conversation without some kind of drug enhancement experience.
I am a former user of ecstasy. I have taken well over 300 pills in the year or so that I took it. There were times that I would stay awake for more than a week fueled by pills and alcohol. The feeling is like no other but its a horrible realization to surcome to when you realize that you are an addict. I know its been said before but I was hooked on my first pill. I took one my first time, one and a half my second. Ten and a half my third. I lost my job, my truck, most of my family, my friends, and more important than all of that… myself. Alcohol lead me to weed. Weed led me to mushrooms. Mushrooms lead me to cocaine. Cocaine led to me ecstasy. Ecstasy led me to crack. Crack led me finally to jail. I now have 3 M.I.P. (minor in possesion) convictions. 1 D.U.I. conviction. 1 Felony Narcotics conviction. I am unsure of my long term effects on my body. I know my memory is almost completly shot. My back is always sore (I am guessing from acid/mushrooms/ecstasy/morphine) I used to be a very smart person. Drugs have really dumbed me down. If I can reach even one person with this and have them turn down drugs then my teen years would have not been a total waste.
I get anxiety a lot from it, i know its from it. Because when i first started, and the day that i knew that i would be taking a pill that night i’d get sweaty and butterflies and just really excited. and now theres so many times where i get that same feeling and it make me sick to the stomach. The thought of rolling doesnt even interest me anymore, it scares me. I used to be addicted, and i craved it all the time. My memory is screwed too, i feel stupid talking to someone at work to help them, then two minutes later asking them if they need help. I feel me being messed up from it, my anxiety is the worst. I dont know how to make it go away, if it ever will.
Andrew-your post is very good advice and very well written. I hope that you
continue to share your story with others so that you do touch someones life.
However, my main reason for being here is because I have a lot of questions,
concerning my 22 year old brother and I am hoping that someone has advice,
suggestions,etc. He, like many others his age, used to drink every weekend
and experimented with things such as cocaine,weed,pills,ecstasy. However,
the past 6 months he has been experiencing a lot of what appears to be panic
and anxiety. He claims that he hasn’t done anything but smoke weed and drink
since the summer. The feelings of panic and chest pains,headaches,etc. have
now taken a new level of discomfort and he’s having difficulty getting through
the day. Its been 6 days since he has smoked weed/drank alcohol, could the
feelings and sickness he’s experiencing be from a week ago and could this be a
permenant side effect from his party habits? Any advice, comments, etc would be
greatly appreciated. Thank you!!
I’m with you Kayler and Andrew;
I was drinking from 14, done my first e at 15 and from then went absolutely wild on the things. I took one, double dropped the second time, then done them every weekend throughout my last school years. Then when I left school, I didn’t do any up ’til college, where I got my brother on them and started going really intense, 25 pills a week in some stages. I’ve tallied that i’ve done way over 500 pills.
I use to be a happy lad, I still am, but my personality has certainly changed. All during these e days, I done ketamine, coke, alcohol, lots of weed, speed etc etc. Now I only do coke when i’m out drinking, once or twice a month, ’cause i’m too scared of OD’ing when i’m sober and alcohol’s the only thing that relaxes me. I am quite depressed now, anxiety non stop, it’ll never go away, I just know it, i’ve messes myself up too much. I was young at the time and didn’t realise the damage I was doing, now it’s caught up on me. I haven’t done coke since the end of November and i’m trying to quit alcohol to try and sacrifice my brain and my organs, ’cause everything is surely on the verge of collapse.
I’m only 20, 21 at the end of this month; now i’ve had my fun and it’s fucked me up, and i’ll never regain the person I was, unless I pack everything up and try and get my energy and memory back on track. My concentartion and memory is diabolical, and i always get abdominal pain on my upper-right side (liver)mainly because I became an alcoholic after quitting the e, to help cure the anxiety and depression.
Anyone reading this who’s blasting back as many e’s as I was, it’s not worth it. Many people said to me at the time, “sort yourself out” etc, but I didn’t listen, e helped me through a lot of things, but it’s long term you’ve got to think about. I’m 20 and feel like i’ve got bloody alzeimers.
I have only done e about 20 times 2 bombs a time due to the fact that I am prescribed to antidepressants. Using e was one of the worst decisions of my life. I think due to my use in such a short period of time it really impacted my depression. My back honestly never stops aching and I completely lost my long distant eye sight. If you’re reading this take my advice and never use this drug or any other for that matter… It’s just not worth it.
my story is similar to all of yours.. I have to stay anonymous because I’m well known and it would ruin my career if I published my name. I started smoking weed at 16, ecstasy and coke at 17. I’ve done shrooms, ketamine, 2cb (mescaline), xanax, vicodin, norcos, soma, you name it, I’ve done it. I’m only 20 years old and I rarely ever do anything besides smoke weed now a days, and maybe roll once every couple months. but when I was 17, I went CRAZY on ecstasy. doing 10 pills a week, for a year straight, and still continue to do it sometimes to this day. I’ve probably done over 300 pills, and let me tell you, I regret every single one. I think about killing myself everyday, I have bi polar disorder and major anxiety. I rarely eat, rarely sleep, and my brain never stops thinking. I don’t have any physical pains though.. maybe its because I never really got into drinking like most people. I’ve seen my friends lives be completely fucked up, in jail, I’ve even had friends who have overdosed and died. I’m happy to say that I am a changed person, I tell all of my friends not to do the stupid shit I’ve done. I go to great lengths to stop them from doing drugs, even though I can’t seem to stop myself. I’ve tried therapy, rehab, everything, but the loss of happyness I experience overpowers all of it. My advice to anyone reading this and just started rolling or doing any drug, DO NOT DO IT. stop. TRUST ME! Your life will be ruined. you will not be the same. it might seem like fun at first but it gets old fast.. and all your left with is a broken heart and a twisted mind.
Andrew’s post and the annoymous post was very moving. I’ve popped maybe 15 thizzels and I’m glad I’ve stopped. My boyfriend has popped over 250 thizzels and it scares me sometimes when I think about how his brain is going to work when he’s twenty or older. He forgets a lot of stuff and often doesn’t know basic stuff like a person should. I’m fine in the regard that I don’t remember stuff and thankfully I still have my smarts. But for the people that didn’t get help soon enough I’m very sorry. I just hope people realize what a horrible drug ecstasy is. . . its so far from “worth it”.
Let’s see; where to start. I am a person that used “E” many times between the ages of 20-24. It was primarily for a social occasion such as a party or a night club. It never really got out of hand but it was continuous at least 1-4 times a month for those years. During this time I never lost a job, never lost a home, never lost a car and still lived a normal day to day life. I “used” on the weekends and partied hard.
I am 30 now and I am posting to give hope to those that have “used” to show that it does not always have a negative effect on people in the long run. Since I have quit using, I took myself to college and graduated in the top ten in my class for Video Game Design. I now operate my own business and have a very happy married life.
The partying was fun and was a very big part of my life. The drugs actually helped mold my personality and allowed me to not be so insecure with myself. I can admit that I may have some short term memory loss but nothing significant. This could also be caused by any number of things with age so I am not at all concerned about it.
Do I feel that taking Ecstasy is a good thing? No
Do I regret taking Ecstasy? No, it was a choice I made and when I wanted to stop, I stopped.
Has Ecstasy given me anxiety and severe brain damage? No
Do I recommend that you take Ecstasy? No, but do what you want.
Will all users have the same outcome as me? Nope
Will I ever use it again? Nope. I had my fun.
Was it a gateway to other drugs? No. I started with it and ended with it.
If you are prone to addiction do not take Ecstasy.
One more note. Don’t get caught with it because the gov’s crack down hard on it. It gets expensive real quick! =)
Cheers!
J
Hi I was doing a web search on ‘long term effects from ecstasy’ and I came across all your posts. Very moving and I identify with all of you. I am searching this out because I am 34 now, I havent had an e since I was like 19 but I think I am suffering from the long term effects of it. My e binge, back in the day, I think went for a few months full on. I dont really remember much from back then. But I have to say I have never ever felt happy since. I think the e has freaked up my serotonin. I’ve had counselling and anti-depressants but I just have no joy.
I hope oneday my serotonin in my brain will be repaired because I crave happiness and positive thoughts again.
I have no desire to take drugs, I generally take care of myself now, but unfortunately I think I have suffered the long term side effects of drugs.
Hi! I just wanted to comment on some of your posts. I too experienced with E for a couple years…18-23. Some of the time was more and some less. I never considered myself addicted seeing that I used it recreational and never paid for it with my own money and when I was ready to change I just stopped. I am now 27 and still experiencing panic attacks. They did not start while I was using but about a year after using. I also have a mind that never stops thinking. I can actually visualize things in my heads like a cartoon. I was never like this before but the constant thoughts are not a problem for me. The worse thing is the panic attacks. I honestly believe that I have to deal with this all because of using E. I don’t regret anything i’ve done because it has made me who I am and I had to learn things for myself but I don’t recommend using to others. I was the type who thought there was a “right” way to use such as not drinking too much water but drinking enough. I never thought about the long term and wouldn’t have thought it would happen anyways. I just wanted to say that I know where some of you are coming from and sometimes it drives you crazy but you’ll be stronger of a person for overcoming it. Although I lost my way I am one semester from graduating with my B.A. in Psychology and my plan is to help at risk youth because I know how easy it is to get off track and I’ve seen so many people go many different ways. I know this may not help but at least you know your not alone.
I was a frequent user of ecstasy. Still do but rarely. I can still have fun at parties without it. I never got depressed afterwards. You have to know what you’re doing and do the proper research. I’m the same person now as I was before. End of story. Not everyone’s the same. Not everyone gets addicted the first pill. I have a great job and am currently going for my masters. My life wasn’t ruined, but enhanced because I didn’t think of it as an escape but a way to expand myself. Take the experience and learn from it. I never went to rehab or went crazy. You just have to know how to control yourself, and have it set in your mind what exactly it is you want out of life. Yes, drugs are bad. I’m not condoning them AT ALL. But just know that not everyone has a horror story. Just because someone rolls once it doesn’t means that their life is shot and they’re going to die.
While I understand that certain people have very addictive personalities, and ecstasy should not be taken by everyone, if you are able to control when you use, and how much you use, I see no problems with doing the drug. I have taken ecstasy three times (a total of eight pills) and Molly (MDMA powder) four times (about 1.15 grams total). Besides allowing myself a short recovery time, usually less than a day, I have not experienced any other effects. In this time, normally I am very tired, have no appetite, memory can be poor and might have slight muscle pain in my jaw or general aches from standing and dancing all night. While coming down, once I experienced nausea, but that was due entirely to drinking too much water throughout the night.
In my opinion, the biggest danger of ecstasy is not knowing what is in your pills. You can get a meth-bomb or a pipe, which doesn’t give you the high you would like and can make you very sick. A good way to avoid pills like these are only buying from people you know, getting a pill testing kit, or checking websites like pillreports.com. At this website and others similar to it, people post reports on pills they have taken, the contents of the pills if they test them, and a report of the roll. This website has pills sorted by location, color and logo and you can get a pretty good idea of what you’re taking by searching it.
I understand that drugs can be dangerous, but there are several precautions you can take to make sure you have a safe roll. Nausea and muscle pain can easily be prevented by taking an antacid and NSAID such as Advil or Alieve. While rolling, you will feel very dehydrated and drinking water is very important, but you must pace yourself to make sure you do not drink too much water. I have made this mistake twice before and it causes pretty bad nausea. If you drink one water bottle per hour, there shouldn’t be much of a problem. While rolling, it helps if you have something in your mouth such as a pacifier or sucker to prevent chewing on your tongue or cheek. Lastly, like anything that inhibits you, you shouldn’t drive while on the drug. Lights are incredibly bright which makes it incredibly difficult to judge distances.
If someone decides to use ecstasy, it should be to have a fun night on occasion. If someone is using to escape reality and their problems, or as a substitute for another drug, I could understand it causing addiction.
I have not experienced any long term effects at all and a lot of great memories because of this drug. If you are a person who can control your usage, I honestly seem no harm in the drug as long as it’s used occasionally and in moderation.
manda. take it easy, that sounds similar to denial. read the previous posts and heed there experiences and advice. everyone is not the same, but not many people know they6 have suffered the long term effects of ecstasy until later down the line, when it matters that most.
i used to be quite the e head my self and i agree with the anxiaty thing! will this ever go away? it seems like nothing is as fun without doing xtc.e is defanetly one of the bigest mistakes in my life therez nothing like mowing pillz for weeks on end but the days after are hardly worth it any more. now evan the thought of doing xtc makes me sick to my stomach! some one leme no if there is any way to rid the anxioty caused from xtc! ITS NOT WORTH IT DONT DO IT!!!!!!!
Boo to manda and the other people who make it seem like ecstasy is ok to use or at least try.
I was extremely moved by Andrew and Anonymous’s brief stories.
Drugs scare me. It may seem like fun, but knowing how much it can mess you up both physically and mentally is scary.
I never want to do Ecstasy ever.
I can relate to J and Renee. I began taking e when I was about 17-18 years old. I continued to take it on the weekends when I would go out until I was about 25-26 years old. I have experimented with other drugs but, e was always what I would go back to. I never lost a job, vehicle, and I have 3 degrees and a very stable job. However, I do believe I began experiencing the long term effects of taking e when I was about 30 years old. I am now 37 and it seems to be getting worse. I have been on several different anti-depressants for depression and anxiety. I recently had my first panic attack and my short-term memory is “shot.” It is not so much my short term memory as it is a feeling of being in a fog or scattered brained. I use to be very neat and organized at home and at work. I am not like that at all anymore. I also become overwhelmed in large social situations. I was never addicted and when I decided to quit….I just did with no problems. I do FIRMLY believe that all of these behaviors are a result of my use of e. If anyone reads this…..please think again before taking it. There are serious long term effects!
Hi. I’ve done one pill of e so far, at a rave a month or so ago. I am going to another big rave in a month or so and plan on taking e there, just one or two pills.
I am just really really afraid that I am going to get addicted. I have some confidence in my ability to restrain if I know something is really bad for me, but there will always be that nagging memory of how amazing the experience was, and the desire to relive it. I feel that I may end up telling myself, “Just one or two pills every once in a while is ok”, and then eventually taking enough pills over time and accumulating the negative long-term side effects…
I realize that to other people here just the several pills on one or two occasions that I have done/will do is nothing. But as I said, I am scared of becoming hooked. My first time on e was literally one of the best experiences of my life–full of energy, love, peace. It was a deeply emotional and religious experience. How can I walk away from something like that?
I guess I am seeking advice on ways to not become addicted, and on what a good absolute upper limit on the amount of consumption is.
my first roll was two weeks ago. i took one and it didn’t nothing so i took another one two hours later, i got a little giddy but that was it. I popped two for the next 5 days and finally got my real high on the 5th day. it felt amazing. i want more and more. I crush the first one so it hits faster then crush the second one about 20 min. later. I haven’t used since this past friday and its sunday. I dont feel like i’m hooked or depressed but i want that high again. its the best feeling in the world and without it i feel “not right”.. im not sure how long it takes to become addicted but is it still okay to pop a couple ?
the thing with the long term effects of e is that a lot of the time they seem pretty minimal. for me its a hightened sensitivity to depression, although not depressed. its the hamster on its wheel in my head that i really struggle to get to stop, leave and let me just experience the joy of life. its grinding my teeth at night so I wake with a stiff jaw and a headache that won’t quit without help of strong painkillers that I would prefer to do without. its over sensitivity to caffeine - even that found in the good chocolate - I have one too many (3) blocks of lindt 90% and feel like i’m on a mini e trip - sometimes not the good kind. even decaf affects me in this way sometimes and before e i used to drop espressos and sleep like a baby. its backache and a body that just doesn’t feel right and i’m not even 30 yet. all these started during my e-taking days - 1 year after i quit. i “only” did e on weekends, never double dropping or going silly, not doing other drugs, just enjoying the experience. I ate well before and after and “looked after myself” during (keeping hydrated, not mixing with alcohol or other drugs, giving myself the calming space during the down). my e taking days covered about 2 years, 19-20, and when i wanted to stop, i did easily. my sentiments used used to be like those of J’s (post in feb 2010) and i was actually grateful for the experience. but now i kinda wish i had looked after my body better. it was awesome at the time but that has robbed me of a lot of the awesome of now - the natural kick that life offers. i just can’t reach that place anymore, its like that well is just doesn’t have enough left in it. for me, its not worth it.
At parties, rarely will people tell the truth about Extacy: it is a life destroyer,
In my case, I only used E a few times, but still, it was the single worst decision I have ever made. I basically OD’ed one night on E, afterward, I was never the same, I blew out so much dopamine/serotonin that I loss the ability to feel joy, happiness, and compassion, I lost the desire to do even anything, and further was beset by terrible twitches. I have recovered after several years of searching a therapy which I found effective, but many years of my life have been lost, so much that I’d rather die and start again than to live to middle age. I missed out on too much cause of some stupid E. My conclusion about drugs is this: Alcohol and Pot is great. You can go for DECADES drinking and smoking everyday and still be OK. You cannot go for very long using E or Meth regular without suffering serious health problems and devastation. I have met many veteran E partiers who when queried will admit that E has left them with headaches, & physical damaged. I wish someone would have told me the truth about Meth and E back then, no one did, that they are life destroyers, and If you use them YOU WILL LOSE.
Smoke pot, drink beer, & nothing else - you will be OK.
XTC, what an illusion. All the sensations that people feel when they are E are just illusions based on nothing but an some chemicals that have been artificially induced to be released that make you feel great for a little while without no reason in reality to do so. Evey time you use E, you come back with a little less, until you can no longer feel happiness and all that is left is depression and misery. ETC is a very easy way to destroy your life.
You all are lame. You act like you did not know any of this when going into it. You knew exactly what you were getting into with the drug and the consequences from it. But YOU still chose do it. I take X about 1 or 2 times every other month or so or sometimes even longer in between.
Andrew, really? you are going to blame each drug use on the next type you did. Grow up. You wanted to know the feeling so you tried. And guess what you liked but have no self control over your mind and body and YOU let the drug control YOU not vice versa.
All this whining on here makes we want to get high right now
I have read all your posts. And it hit me. I did ecstacy once and it was about a week ago. It was a wonderful feeling and the high was intense but after reading all of your posts im never going to dance with the Devil again. My sister was an x user for quite sometime and now shes suffering anxiety, depression, loss of happiness and whatever else comes along with the effects. I for one will never touch it again. And thanks to this website you guys have changed the way i think and view things in life. Yes i strongly agree with jimenes its all an illusion not just x only any drug. Thank god i cam upon this website and read all this information. God bless all of you
Just found out my child (17) has done it 3x that she is willing to talk to me about. I am an addict (clean for 13 years) and I never tried E….I don’t want her to suffer the consequences I did in that world/environment and I don’t think she is willing to listen since I am “mom”….I am printing all the comments and letting her read them…maybe then she will understand I am not trying to blow smoke….or being lame….
well< im 17 ive popped about 120pillz with in the past year i think. but i think i mite be suffering from some sort of side-effects from them. my mind moves like speed racer, i just alwase have these thoughts going in and out of my mindd and over all its just changed my life. i just dont feel the same as i was. the first time i took 2. and cant even remember the nite. and every time after ive tooken between 4 and 6. Once i took raw MDMA too(molly powder)that changed me alot personality wise. Dont get me wrong i love the feeling of “e” and i do think people should try out the drug, and if you do onld do i once. just make sure you know what your gettin yourself into, Read up about it, and “roll” with someone whos already done it before, just for safty
I began taking E when I was 18. Like everyone else, I loved it.
For the 1st year I probably only took about 10 pills, but over the course of the next 4 years I got into selling it, so it was always on hand. I must have taken about 8 to 10 pills a month for about 3 years.
During my usage, the most prominent side effects I noticed were sudden equilibrium loss (not while on the drug, just out of nowhere) for a spit second, short term memory loss for the week following the usage, and sporadic episodes where I felt like I was on ecstasy, which would subside after 10 to 20 secs (scary).
Also, I’m pretty sure I’ve had a stroke or two (sudden vision loss in one eye, numbness in my face for a few secs).
I recently decided to quit (I’m 22) but I am nervous about the long term effects I will suffer. Can someone give me some good news?
It’s weird though because I don’t really regret taking it. I feel like somehow God put this in my life for a reason whether it be to learn something, teach something, or simply provide me with a test of strength to practice self control in life by quitting.
I hope I don’t die.
I am now 29 years old and was a former e-head. Probably popped a few hundred pills in my lifetime, doing the party night club scene in Manhattan from 18-22 w/ a fake id.
Look, the drug is great, I wish I could trip on E every single day. E and lsd was the best drugs I ever did.
But it did ruin my life as well. I remember being in college class one day and I had a huge panic attack because being surrounded by so many people made me nervous I started sweating and ppl were asking me if I was ok.
Alot of people say they get anxiety and panic attacks years after they stop (because you DO get those often when you do E), the other day someone at my job asked me why I get nervous sometimes. Truth be told, I dont know about you all, but when I was in highschool I was a nervous wreck anyway which was probably why I did drugs to begin with, and Id probably still get some panic/anxiety and twitches (lol) even if I never did anything. Some ppl are just more antsy/panicky/twitchy than others in my humble opinion.
People also say that their mood has suffered from it, they don’t experience joy anymore, they feel hollow.
This is true as well. But the truth is, the drugs were great, we experience such a high from lsd/coke/exctacy or whatever choice drug you did, that you’ll never experience that high again and everything else seems kind of boring to us compared to the average folk who consider having 3 drinks at a restaurant a “wild night out”. The simple way of life is boring for many..going bowling, going to the movies, dinner, spending time with family, staying in and watching tv on a saturday (shocking right?)..it’s alot different.
Deep in my thoughts, I still remember those great highs I experienced on drugs, but I have to remind myself that living the average, cliche and simple type of life can be fun as well and you just have to accept it, the joy’s of life will come back to you again like it did for me.
My new drug in my life is traveling and vacationing, taking things easy now, not taking anything for granted, etc. I actually enjoy doing the stuff we all considered “boring and lame” when we were on drugs. I moved away from the city and the clubs and live in a really rural area and love the nature now as opposed to clubs, buildings, crowds, parties, nightlife, etc.
I wish I never did drugs, specifically exctacy, but I did, I accepted it, some of my best times were from it, and now Im ready to enjoy the next part of my life. Sometimes I find myself telling old stories of what I used to do back in the day and the average person would be shocked, but a part of me is glad that I did go through it, because I can say I experienced everything. Maybe one day I will have a family of my own and if I do, I’d be able to help my kids better in their high school years because I understand what its like living in today’s environment, the pressures, etc.
I am not a frequent user of ecstasy but i have done it 3 or 4 times. There was a time where i took two one night, then took two the very next night. Why i did this? I have no clue. I think back on my why i did it and cant believe that i did. Its not until the last time i tripped that i realized what i was doing to myself. The trip was so bad i didnt go to sleep and i worked that morning. Since then i have been knocking over things at work, not listening to what people say, i’ve been so angry i almost fought one of my best friends last night over nothing. This drug has seriously impacted my life and I am on my way to getting better. But it will take time. So if anyone is reading this please think twice before popping your next pill. It will change your life.
If I could go back in time to that first time I ever tried Exctacy, I would have NEVER done it. I had no idea then the long term effects that I was having on by mind and body. For anyone who is thinking about trying it or quitting it, pleeaasse know that you are dramatically changing your perception of the world around you in a very bad way and will be lucky if you don’t end up with a foggy brain somewhat like a hangover for years if not forever.Its just not worth one night of fun a few times even.People doing it will always be looking for others to do it with them and they will convince you that you HAVE to try it. Instead of listening to them, ask somebody who USED to do it and has stopped years ago. I struggle with depppression and anxiety on a regular basis although I have gotten better through the years. I think about it though, and the worst part is wondering what damage was done and I’ll never know for sure so it’s much better for you and less stressful on your entire life if you just don’t worry yourself about trying such a stupid thing.
im quite young and ive done e, quite a bit and im already going to court for it , the thing about it is the trips can either be really fun or you can have a bad trip and you feel so shiitty. or you just get plain emotional. its not worth it, once you try e being happy sober is almost not enough. cus everything is so much better on e. the thing is you cant get addicted to the drug, you get addicted to the feeling . and i remember my first time trying e, i suggested the idea to my friend all pumped up cus i really wanted to try it, and i regret that. everyone will want you to do it if they do it , but if youve never done it DONT TRY IT. it messes with your spinal fluid and your brain. i remember the 3rd time i did e i remember as i dropped a 2nd pill that night my baack hurt so bad like i wanted to cry , and once you come down you feel so sad. like serriously you can talk to anyone about anything theres no barriers which is why i love the drug, but then the depression when you come down and days after makes you hate it with all your heart. so if your reading this and youve never tried e and your trying to find out what it does to you or how to do it safely. there is no safe way you can drown yourself by drinking water and if you dont drink water you can dehydrate you will probably be ok, but it will lead to an emotional addiction which is not worth it, please just take my advice DONT DO E! or anything else, if you have to do drugs stick to non -chemical drugs (weed, mushrooms)
I jus want to say a few of your storys touched me and “anonymous” yur teen yrs didn’t go to waist cuz now yu have a story to tell that will hopefuly help others. I’m 16, and I’ve only took and e once in my life I’ve smoke weed wen its offered but that its. Although wen I took it I felt amazing I never did it again becuz I kno there addictin n I didn’t want to be hook, but wha I rlly want to say n get some advice on is for my boyfriend, he’s 17 almost 18 he has been takin e sine last summer I think I don’t think more than 20 he smoked week every single day n drank over the weekends sometimes e pills were jus occasionaly. So about 2 months ago he took e, he smoked n he drank, he claimed one of “friends” put somethin in his drink n that the weed might have been spiked. 2 days later he told me he felt like he was still on it n that he was buggin n that’s wen his mom got invovled he went to his therapist n they gave him anti depresants n shit for like 2 weeks he was rly paranoid n scared of somethin happenin to me or his mom becuz last year he had problems with some ppl n he got stabbed so that’s were some of the fear came from. Then one afternoon we were wachin a movie n he all on meds so he was drousy nd out of no where he started shakin like tremors I thought it was a sezire but it wasn’t the paradetics took him to the hospital he was in and out of the hospital for a week but this like he had to stay he was in there for a good week and no one knew wha was goin on so wen he got the tremors they jus gave him more meds to relax n put him to sleep then after that week they put him in the phyc place upstair for 2 more weeks (I saw him everday x3) I saw how him being in there jus made him worse they changed his meds like twice. Wen they sent him home he did fine that first day but now he hasn’t come out for like 3 weeks that’s he’s been home he dosent talk he never wants to have sex he ignores everyone all day unless yu try to talk to him its like he’s gone n I rly do love him I jus don’t kno wha to do anymore wha to say I reached out to him a few times n he’s reponded he dosent even want to kiss me anymore he’s always washin his hands like if he’s scared of germs. He says I jus need to give him time but idk how I should jus be there its rly stressful I want to help him but I don’t kno how to he shows that’s he cares in his own way but he’s not the same anymore at all I’m scared becuz I don’t kno if he’ll ever come out of this I miss him so much, he’s a good person he rly is he’s so kind n thoughful he wanted to get his shit together until that one night, I need answers I been lookin for them everywhere there’s no one to talk to my friends aren’t rly wha yu would want to call friends my fam.. I’d rather them not even kno since there so judgin . I’m sry this is so long there jus no short way to say it I’ll appriciate some advice .
I forgot to mention that he has anxiety too and the tremors went away, also he smoked weed everyday for like 6 months not the whole year .
E helped me get off heroin so if you think about it it saved my life. And I’m not saying that I replaced heroin with e. I only roll about 1 to 2 times every two months or so. It just showed me that I still could go out and do fun things like going to clubs and raves. As for after effects I feel a little dumb for a day or two after but that quickly subsides. I think in moderation it is not that harmful of a drug. Over use can be devastating though. Ive seen it with my own eyes.
Im 18yrs old and ive done my share of thizzing when i was 16 and then i kept on doing it, since i never thought much of it, and they were all free. But i didnt do enough to fuvk up my brain THANK GOD! Im still the same person and im lucky i stopped before i couldve got worse. My boyfriend who 18 , however has done more then 100, i know that but i cant stand to here how many hes acually taken, im so glad he stopped. I know he has anxiety attacks and problems sleeping because of it. It makes me hate drugs so much. FOR All those teenage kids out there who dont think it will harm them, your wrong. Stop before it to late. Its not worth losing to real self in.
I did not put my acctual name because of how old i am. I am 14 years old and I recently decided to start a sober life. At the age of ten i took my first hit of a ciggerate. after a couple of months i was addicted and still am. after my body buzzez went away i started experimenting with drugs. it started with weed then salvia then opium then adderal then methadome then mushrooms then EX then acid. I know that to most people this will come as a shock because of my age. Im not going to get into any of the other drugs but i can honestly say ecstacy has really fucked up my life. I used to be a happy boy with all my friends playing football everyday after school. Now.. i have lost all of my old friends they cant even stand to look at me. I got kicked out of school, because i brought a half oz of mushrooms to the 8th grade. all my friends are 18+ and there all about to move on with their lives and leave me behind. I’ve done well over 70 rolls. On fridays i would start out with one or two, Saturday i would pop one snort one and parachut another one, sunday i would pop about 4-6 rolls. by monday morning i was so damn depressed all i could think about was how i was going to kill myself. It was only a weekend thing for me. Still 8 months later i still have thoughts of suicide on a regular basis. I am 14 years old.. i have the rest of my life to live like this. 17 days ago i quit all my drugs and drinking habbits. Depression hit me harder. I have such server panic attacks it feels like my brain is being smooshed together. and i cant breathe. Ive never had anxiety problems till i quit being an addict. i think because all day everyday my body was numb i didnt realize what the ex was doing to me. i have a heart problem. that i never knew about till about a week ago. i blame the ex. its hard to remember what i used to do as a kid. dont get me wrong, i still am a kid but it deffinetly doesnt feel like it anymore. i feel like an old man. ive never told anybody how i feel but after hearing your guy’s stories i felf comferable enough to speak of it. to the people who are questioning ex. please please please dont do it. i have to live the rest of my life like this. everytime i think of what i did in the past year i get more and more depressed. im on probation becuz i broke into a truck and stole 7 grand. all because i needed money for my drugs. I often wake up every morning and just lay there till someone comes and gets me up because i dont see any reason to get out of bed anymore. i believe i will never be as happy as i once was. i hope that this gets out to the people who want to try doing ex or any drug for that matter. Ive never spoke of this so it feels a little better now that ive told all of you about this. please write. i dont have much to look forward to each day. KW
I have a strong recommendation to all of those that are suffering from the long term effects of E or other drugs.
START EXERCISING and eating healthy. And by exercise, I do not mean 30 minutes a day 3 times a week. I mean serious exercising, 5 times+ a week an hour each session, and make it count. Do not underestimate your bodies ability to rebuild itself. Give it what it needs and craves in good eating and regular strong exercise and your body will thank you by producing the right hormones and rebuilding things you thought were destroyed. I also urge you to begin mental exercising, do puzzles, play memory games etc. Your brain WILL improve the parts of the body that you use. Damage from E may be great but can be partially reversed if you do right by your body.
If you do this, you and your body will be thankful, this I promise. I know it will be hard at the start because your motivation will be low due to the damage caused by the E, try to find a partner willing to go the distance with you in your new healthy lifestyle and you will be rewarded.
hello, i’ just turned 16 years old and I’ve done e 5 times 4 of which when I was 15. I really really regret every single pill I’ve ever dropped. I think they really messed me up for good.. I don’t even thinkthe same anymore I used to be so happy about everyhing, so optimistic and full of life and ambition. but now all my brain does is think. and think. and think. and I absolutely hate it.
I never stop thinking about evey little thing. I overlook everyhing, everyone. and I don’t want to. I want to be back to normal but it just seems like happiness is so far away from what is going on right now. I’ve had so many suicide thoughts and I don’t think any of my rolls were ever worth it. my friends want me to roll win them again this September but I don’t know if I can take any more feeling like this. I really hope by the time I’m older and want to have kids and settle down, I’m not all Fucked up from all the shit I’ve done to my head.
if you know what’s good for you please don’t put yourself through this bullshit I’m in just for a couple fun nights win your friends
Basically I popped my first pill last night, obviously I liked it. The come down really wasn’t bad and I worked this morning with almost no problems aside from being a little overheated. I took a nap when I got home and now I feel fine being less than 24 hours later.
I’m not interested in some sob story of an addict and I don’t want advice from someone who doesn’t know what they’re talking about. I want to hear a story from someone who just did like 10-12 pills a year maybe over two years max.
I’m in college, it’s a fun drug, and it’d be nice to do it once a month maybe every other month just for a year. Would this give me any longterm side effects or are most these people with depression getting it from using like 20 or more pills a year which is so stupid? And please don’t tell me I’ll get addicted, I just want some good advice and to know whether this would be dangerous. Thanks.
So for those experiencing long term side effects and have been on antidepressants which ones have you had the best experiences with? I’m 44 and have had two periods of my life that I over indulged in the drug. Once in the late 80’s then again in the late 90’s - 01. I have bad anxiety, depression, panic…..my mind races out of control all the time and i can’t control it to the point it makes me feel sick.
I have been on all of the anti’s they all work for a while then fizzle out kind of quick. I guess i have had the most success with Cymbalta. Pristique worked well too just way too expensive.
I started using at 15, raised in Vegas, at raves and parties. Its an addicting lifestyle. I ended up getting kidnapped and raped before I pulled out of the scene. Ten years later I still feel a general haze from the couple years of ecstasy abuse. My memory is not sharp, I ask the same questions within 5 minutues of each other… I feel like I have ADD, but I was a 4.0 kid until I started to party. And none of those party friends stuck around, by the way, because they aren’t real friends. No friend would let you destroy your mind and put yourself in danger. I have anxiety and breathing problems and used to feel as if I saw demons on people. I also used to wake up in terror. Those things have gotten better, but life was a nightmare for years. Natural healthy eating, studying herbs and plants and spices… exercise, learning to play instruments, and time devoted to God and prayer has healed me as much as I can be, but I’ll never be 100% again, and it’s a constant reminder when I feel myself losing it. I have to just recognize that the things I’m experiencing are a result of brain damage and fight through it every day.
I wish someone wouldv’e stopped me when I was a kid and only cared about being cool and making friends and “sharing the love” and being ’scene’. It’s a fantasy lands that turns into a nightmare once your stuck in it. Don’t dance with the devil.
E affects everyone differently. Most people are not able to sleep after coming down. I fall asleep very easily. Every time I have rolled i’ve taken minimum 3 hits. The next day I feel borderline retarded but that subsides quickly. I have also only experienced a “come down” once. I beleive the reason i felt a come down on that occasion was because I rolled for 2 days straight at coachella. over those 2 days I took around 12-13 hits. Thats alot of E in a short amount of time. Another interesting thing I noticed about that comedown was the nature of my life at the time. I was doing very poorly in school, my relationship with my family was terrible and once the E wore off all of those componets all hit me. The next 2-3 days following coachella were rough. I was depressed about life. I got better and life went on. I went to EDC a few months later. During the time period of EDC, i was happy with myself. I rolled balls (6 hits), had a great time, fell asleep very easily (got around 7 hours of sleep)and woke up feeling like crap physically. But emotionally I was fine. I might be all over the place when writing this but what I am trying to say is people experience different things while taking this drug. You should never take drugs to make depression go away. thats what i did at coachella and that was the only time ive had a come down. As for the long term affects who knows what it does. If anyone reads this I highly recommend watching a documentary by Peter Jennings called Extacy Rising. It is very interesting. And everyone remember, EVERYTHING IN MODERATION.
right after i dropped out of school when i was sixteen some of my friends started rolling face, poppin’ pills, droppin e, whatever you wanna call it, but it was nothing serious, on the weekends, one pill per person. then everyone started doing it, one by one all of us joined it. until we were all doing it, some more pills then others. we would feel like such crap the next day we would just keep doing it every night. when we couldnt find it we would freak out and have nothing else to do. our lifes consisted of doing e every night. we would drive an hour some nights just to get it. im not going to lie, the feeling is amazing and i loved it but i was doing it behind my boyfriends back. when he found out, everyone kinda stopped. and i felt like crap all the time. all of us stopped hanging out because we really didnt have anything in common now that we all stopped using. i did it once or twice after and i loved it. but hated the morning after. then, the last time i did it, i had a bad trip. i was so pissed off the whole time, sick to my stomach the whole time, and crazy anxiety. i will never touch e again because of that. it turned me off, i probably would do it again if i knew i was going to have a good roll, but after that bad one i just never would do it again. as for long term side affects, i guess i am lucky or maybe didnt do it enough to be affected. my life was pretty crazy when i was using but ive straightened everything out and i am in college now, have a job, and my own car.
Ecstasi is something I did in a college a bit but I was really more into the hippie type of drugs for mind expansion. I read a lot of Huxley and Richard Alpert who did mescaline and lsd for mind expansion. It is amazing how a drug can make your state of mind change so much. I guess that is why so many people take zanex and attivan. But it does show that our misery isn’t necessary and the mind can change our reactions when we alter our perceptions and get beyond our boundaries.
This year was my final year of high-school. Rather popular and trying to stay that way, all through my teens I had smoked pot and cigarettes, not to mention the every weekend binge drinking at parties. This year my best friend had introduced me to the drug ecstacy. I have always been the one to say no to any new drugs and was simply happy with the way everything was, but the way he had described it to me; with feelings of being invincible, superman like etc. (which aren’t really true)had me enticed. I then went home to research it, and its negative side effects; nothing that seemed too crazy too handle (after all i was smoking pot everyday).
So that weekend we were at his girlfriends house, and she had invited all her girlfriends over. Little did i know that the plan for the night was to get crazy on E. So i tried it and like anyone who has done it can relate; it was the most definitely one of the funnest nights of my life.
To this day i have done E maybe a good 10-12 times (each time trying to recreate the fun i had the very first time), but when i did i would often do around 10 hits, anything else was pussy to me.
I would experience great feelings of anxiety in school and at home often around a week later. I found that i almost had developed this switch that could easily go from nothing to a short period of rage; and eventually got so bad i found myself punching over 20 holes in my walls and doors, to at one point my mom was arguing with me and i threw a glass at our expensive dining room table as hard as i could (because she wouldn’t stop nagging me-good excuse right?)
i haven’t done it in over say 6 months, but the effects now are much different then before. I no-longer find myself at a high anxiety level ( back in the day i thought i might even accidentally kill someone ) but i definitely am experiencing not depression - but a lack of happiness. I am not sad, but i am very rarely happy or smiling. Feel like my brain is so cloudy i couldn’t even tell you what i had for dinner last night, not even breakfast this morning. I feel like i have lossed half of my personality, I am also very paranoid- always waking up to the slightest sounds thinking someone is gonna rob me or something. I am sure alot of these effects can be derived from my marijuana consumption - but let me tell you i can guarantee that 90 percent can be linked to E, as i only smoke pot now like once a week.
So to the person reading this who is going through some of the same things i am; the paranoia will get better if you stop smoking weed haha but the other effects are pretty much there to stay for now it seems ( the personality part getting worse and worse ). and to people who haven’t The only advice i can give is that you can’t try it even once….cuz i guarantee it will be the only thing on your mind for the next month.
And “in” your mind for possibly forever.